So I wanted to go over some of my overeating and sex addiction past here. My over eating. I am drinking Crystal Light Lemonade instead of coke right now. But I think I had carbs in my house all week and I would not be surprised if my weight had gone up from 285 to 297 yikes. But I am going down now. If I can not lose down to 260 by the end if this year I may reconsider the surgery.
I don't want the surgery. But if it comes to that ok. I have one thing I can eat many overeaters can't. Salty snacks and spice EXCEPT for potato chips, if there's a bag of potato chips, Barbecue cheddar cheese plain sour cream and onion yea it'll be gone just like that.
Technically my Blood pressure stays low, I think I inherited it from my Mom, and my Dr. says my salt levels in my blood tests are always low so I don't worry about it as much. However I don't snack much on salty stuff, I am a card-carrying sugar carb addict, it's all sweets. I will get 3 boxes of sweet cereal, cocoa pebbles, cocoa Krispies, Fruity Pebbles, or Lucky Charms, or Cinnamon Toast Crunch all yummy!
I use to eat Count Chocula as a child wonder what happened to that. I am a chocoholic but I do eat other sweets. Then I'll get a gallon of premade chocolate milk or regular milk if they're out of the chocolate and then I'll get Hershey's syrup with it or Ovaltine.
I pig out for days on that kind of stuff. So salt is not my issue. But I think I'm gonna get some salty regular butter popcorn this week, hopefully, my home health lady can find the small packets, with individual servings in it.
Maybe it will help but I know I am going to be craving carbs this week. I am back on low carbs.
ANyways in my past, I can't believe I let sex get so out of control. I was an ex Pentecostal, but even in the church, I was becoming rebellious and even though I am glad I am not in that church sometimes I think how could I have with my church standards let things go so much.
But when I was in my late 20s early thirties, first I was a pizza waitress got sexual attention for that at the pizza place, but it was my voice mainly that got me into being addicted to the attention. I have a young Texas accent and the guy's loved it so when I worked at the pizza place slater on it was all as a phone answering person I took orders on the computer and the guy's loved my voice and flirted with me. I got a lot of attention for it. Then in telemarketing, it was the same way, I flirted with customers and got a lot of attention.
So just to make sense, I was asked a while back by some rude gentleman up here how can I be a sex addict if I am so fat. I won't get into all of it but when I got all of the attention from men it was for my voice mainly. I am now used to living without all the attention. It was really hard to get used to after never being lonely from jobs like that, it's been a hard road. Cleaning up from sex addiction and getting used to being alone is hard but I now have a new guy friend and I hope it works out.
I did change my accent I don't let myself exaggerate my accent or sexify it on the phone anymore, I try to talk normal so I did change some of my mannerisms got rid of some of the sexiness in my voice to clean up. I did that for my sex addict brothers on the lone on phone meetings for SAA.
I am getting on the phone now for a meeting. Ill write more later.