One example of stupid was me believing I could let it leak out I was bi and still be accepted in a religious group.
Dear KAT-KAT
I read this bit and must pause. For it’s a good example of what we so often do to ourselves: (mis)take
another’s ”stupidity” (I’d rather call it ignorance, personally) for our own and allow it to rob us from innocence.
Innocence,
not stupidity, led you to trust that you could come out to your people; the fact that they chose to judge and cast you out for this, says nothing about you and everything about them.
To claim that it was stupid of
you to trust your people, is not only to take responsibility for their actions, but it will mistakenly lead you to believe that you should abandon your innocence and replace it with mistrust. What way is that to live...?
Living in innocence is believing in others as well as in oneself. It is knowing that yes, sometimes you will be betrayed (we may teach our ego to be okay with being wrong, for it will be - often - even if we were to live in complete mistrust of everyone) but that must always be on your betrayer and does not take away your absolute right to continue to live in innocence.
Put the burden of “stupidity” back on the shoulders of those who act from it: those who think themselves holy enough to judge and cast out another.
And you KAT-KAT, you just keep trusting and living in your truth and innocence.