I am completely undecided when it comes to the existence of God and the afterlife.
I'll start with saying that's a good thing.
I see nothing more than an ongoing debate of various religious and secular views. Many different people have many different answers. Some people are materialists who think that once you die, that is it. Some think that there is a God out there watching and judging you.
Indeed, there are millions of ideas and interpretations to every belief and concept.
But I see no definite answer here. So that means I am open to all the various views of the afterlife and God. This means I am, unfortunately, open to the possibility of Christianity being true. This is a most hated religion to me that I wish to not be open to at all as a possibility. That way, I won't have to worry about going to hell over every little thing I do wrong in this God's eyes.
It seems you have an understanding about what Hell is.. Do you have an understanding of what after life means to you?
Try to ignore for a second all the ideas you know, and try to find an answer of what an after life is to you. be objective. don't let your wishful thinking affect your decision yet.
I detest Christianity so much because the Christian God is no way to develop a personal spiritual relationship with anybody. Someone who judges your way of life you like to enjoy as sinful is a sure way to turn someone off and reject you. That is no way to make friends. That will only make enemies. But a God who supports your way of life and is completely cool with you having parties, sex, etc. would be the most awesome God of all.
Lol.. sounds like you already know the God you want to have
I have no desire whatsoever to live for others or to serve anybody.
Than don't!
This would be a personal God meant for me who is completely fine with me being the judge of myself and my own way of life. He would allow me to set my own personal goals and expectations rather than expecting and demanding me to meet his commands. Therefore, the best bet is for me to either become a full materialist where I don't believe in any God at all, or to somehow believe in this personal God I have created.
I am going to let you in on a secret... All Gods are a personal God!
but shhh... don't let those who believe in a God hear about it..
You can do a very short test to understand what i mean...
Take 50 people and ask them about their God. try to be diverse in religion and not pick one religion rather several.
You'll soon find out that each person have it's own definition of what God is and isn't.
In my case, BTW, God is something people invent to find meaning to their lives, causing them to neglect the true meaning of life they should look for.
I am not sure any argument presented will convince me since there will always be other people with their arguments.
I Can tell you what I'm doing and how I came to be an Atheist.
I Just started learning for my self.
I Didn't take anyone's word for anything.
Big bang? Evolution? Flat earth? Aliens? Elvis is alive?
There are countless ideas, theories and possibilities.
So until you really learn a subject for yourself, Don't make a decision!
Evolution for example, which is one of the greatest debates creationists have, have a lot of counter arguments.
I Have studied (And still am) about the evolution process. I learn the actual theory, I try and understand how things might occur based on what evolution suggests.
Today, It is not a question of whether Evolution is true or not, There is no doubt that it is true. there are however, many open questions about how the evolution mechanism takes its course.
So I started learning about DNA, what is it? how can I see it in my own eyes? whats the structure of it and how it was discovered?
So the short answer is: LEARN! STUDY and question everything!
I am pretty convinced, that if you study sciences to depth, you'll come to the conclusion that God is not a reality. You'll come to understand that there are amazing things we don't yet understand, but as it seems, none of them is super natural!
Trust your senses... Don't trust other people's ideas, ask questions, criticize and try to find answers on your own!
But I am at least willing to try. So I will engage in a debate here as a means to try and convince me. Hopefully it works out in my favor and hopefully I will finally be completely free from all that religious dogma out there that condemns you and makes you obey certain rules.
So I am not going to try and convince you that God is not a reality.
I am not going to tell you that God knows all and it works in a mysterious ways.
The plain truth is, that I Don't know if there is a God, and I doubt if anyone on our planet knows better than me.
I've had my share of spirituality.
I've had my share of Biblical Gods.
I've studied many spiritual concepts for many years, yet I've come to the conclusion that it was all nothing but my wishful thinking.
I would recommend you a nice book called "Conversations with god", written by one, Neale Donald Walsch. It is a spiritual book that present a different view about God.
I Loved it, even though I think it is nothing more than a brilliant imagination of a decent writer.
This book BTW, was my step out of religion beliefs and spirituality.
It made me ask many questions to which even the Perfect God couldn't have answered... So I started looking for answers on my own. Viola! Atheism is a bliss
Feel free to ask anything you want, I will do my best to answer.
So to sum it up, these are your options:
1. Believe people (or a book) who say God exists
2. Believe people (or a book) who say God is actually an Energy or a Life force
3. Believe people who say There is certainly no God (Which can't ever be proven, as one can never prove absence of non existing thing)
4. Become an Atheist, and study the world and only than, come to your conclusions
Ask your self those questions:
Have I ever experienced something that cannot be explained other than it is a God or Spiritual thing?
Have I ever did anything that I couldn't have done regardless to the existence of a God?
Have I ever encountered someone who really proved me that he can connect or communicate to the spiritual realm?
Have I ever been presented with a
sufficient evidence that proved there is something beyond our universe?
Have I ever heard God speak to me? Is so, Am I 100% sure it was God and not the fruits of My imagination?
Have I ever saw something that couldn't be explain scientifically?
Have I ever truly learned about something before I decided it is true or false?
Answering these questions will probably point you to the right direction, be it a personal God or not..
I Wish you luck and God bless