I'm kind of confused right now in the following sense. I asked God to prove to me that Christianity in a more or less fundamentalist or orthodox sense was real and that I should follow it, I keep getting these things whenever I ask that just seems to point to the answer being "yes". The confusion comes in in that I feel like I would be changing my whole self to fit a belief set, and that doesn't sound like what I personally want for myself. I don't want to look through the world in glasses that tell me I'm going to heaven and people who don't believe are going to hell. And sometimes I feel like I'd rather drink the koolaid that is thinking everyone is equal and destined for heaven, which I have been told by some will lead me to the broad path that leads to hell.
as an atheist-
IF there is a god, it is most inconsistent about answering.
IF there is validity to the bible, it is not the "fundy" version
with literal 6 day creation, adam and eve, flood.
If you do not know why that cannot be it, you can be filled in.
Back to prayers "answered". And "getting things".
IF they were saying yes to fundyism, they are for sure
not god-messages.
I wonder if you have ever had some difficult problem
to work out. Should I go to college A or B. That
kind of thing. Worry and wonder and try to decide,
more or less day and night?
IF so, you know what will happen. Your poor lil brain
will get exasperated, and say "A!!! Go to A and leave
me be!"
It feels like a Revelation, it comes while you are
not thinking about it, with great force of authority and
clarity!
But IF you keep wondering, dissatisfied, after a few
days it will happen again, but with a different answer
"GO TO B!!!"
All that is, is about how the human mind works.
Common sense, or maybe a bit of biology and geology
too will tell you the fundyversion of bible meaning
is bonkers.
Another little detail-deciding what to be believe is
nothing but self deception.