day three
I think back to what I was doing before Covid. Before everything went to masks and lockdowns. Before we couldn't leave our homes, and now we can. Before we started fighting over toilet paper and Lysol. (why there has been a toilet paper shortage, is still beyond me)
What was I doing? I remember complaining about work. Complaining about a coworker or two. My husband and I were thinking of starting a family. But, then we changed our minds, literally moments (it seems) before Covid hit. ''I'm not ready,'' but what was I waiting to be ready for? I guess a pandemic to be over.
I wasn't cooking much, but hubby and I exercise together, and enjoy dining out. Locked in the house, I found myself discovering new cuisine to experiment with, all different cultures and tastes. I started watching more Netflix series, and Zooming with long lost friends more often. I've prayed considerably more, well, maybe not more...but more focused. I prayed for people I've never met, and the world over. The world suddenly became smaller to me, and I started listing names from random articles I'd read about families broken apart from other countries, due to the virus.
I remember not taking it seriously at first, and then I did. And then I really did, and wept over Italy's numbers, and the UK. And eventually, for the US. It is weird how a few months ago, life was so much different. Not necessarily better, maybe it wasn't better. Because I feel more whole now, if that makes sense? I feel like I have learned so much about life, about myself, about others. I've looked at death in an entirely new light, and feel like my faith is the most important part of my life, now.
This pandemic has been a nightmare in so many ways, but I feel like I've awakened in a way. We sometimes walk along life half asleep, going through the motions of work, and socializing. We need to be here or there, all at the same time. But, Covid caused me to slow down, and examine life. Not just live it.
I can't say a pandemic is good for the soul, definitely not. But, there have been lessons throughout that I won't be quick to forget. I won't be able to forget.