I have also had periods of time in which profound realizations occurred continuously. Whenever I attempted to convey these realizations in words, I lost the insight I had from many of them. Perhaps you should spend more time sitting in your fully self-aware state and less time preaching at or debating with others.
Seems to me you think Enlightenment is something you just catch glimpses of out of the corner of your mind when you are meditating. I assure you I can be fully self-aware standing with my eyes wide open. It is not action or debate that is capable of pulling me from my state. It is attachment.
So in your honest opinion, you are correct in every single one of the debates that you engage in? There is nothing to be learned from others and nothing can possibly convince you that you may be incorrect in some instances? That's like saying, "Nobody is more humble than me!"
There is plenty to be learned from others who disagree with me, but I am not learning truth from them. I have spent a lot of time online probing a lot of people, figuring out the patterns that usually go along with insane groupthink in many worldviews, often finding them repeating among people who disagree vehemently. As far as me being so deluded that I cannot tell if I lost an argument or not, I've had a lot of debates here. Show me where I err.
I don't think that you are crazy or that you don't have genuine insights to share. I just fear that you may have fallen victim to delusions of grandeur. I'm wary of individuals who believe that they have all the answers to the absolute questions of reality, and that those answers can be meaningfully conveyed through language (which itself is relative to a particular social context).
So, you can't actually demonstrate anything wrong with anything I say, but you want to call me possibly deluded anyway. This is one approach. *shrug*
Others before me like Socrates, Jesus, and Siddhartha Gautama also believed that they had uncovered the absolute questions of reality and, since they taught others, they must have also believed that those answers can be meaningfully conveyed through language. What of them? Were they as deluded as I?