I don't like things like that at all, there was nothing that said "friend"!! You stepped out and spoke from your heart about a very serious situation in your life, it's nothing to laugh about, you deserve more respect then that. I know it's basically none of my biz, but that stuck a nerve,sorry if I'm out of line.
I do have a word for you,just take your time and weigh all your options and the pros and cons of it,I know you worry about your family and friends if you decide on doing it, yea it will be a shock to them and maybe even hard to understand but if they love you,they will stand by you and support you,because your outside my change but you're still the person they've loved for all this time.Keep your head up and I wish the absolute best for you.
many blessings