When I first learned of prophesies, I assumed it represented a future set of collective external events, where the world; humanity, goes into turmoil, leading to redemption. This is what is taught by nearly everyone. Upon building and completing the puzzle, this collective orientation was reinforced. This misunderstanding and the final completed puzzle, induced a mystical psychosis. I began to feel a lot of pressure. It became a very desparate time, with so much to do and so little time. This caused strong firmware to become active.
It turned out, the induction by the puzzle, was not about a collective event, but was really a private internal drama, where all the characters in the play were part of me, and not outside of me. This was a critical realization, that came almost a year later, and led to healing, instead of me going over the edge through unconscious projection from the mystical psychosis that was no yet clear to me.
This following was more than likely a coincidence. When I had completed the puzzle and was starting the mystical psychosis, David Koresh, who led a religious cult in the 1980's, appeared to have induced the same dynamics in himself. I could see all the parallels.The difference was he did not jump off the train at the correct time; assume internal drama. He ended up dying in a fire. His choice helped me make my choice.
The difficulty at this crossroads; go external projection to internal , was that the external fantasy induction made me feel powerful; ego. The alternative, or internal drama path, meant sacrificing the ego and my perception of strength and control. The new alternative placed me at a severe disadvantage. This choice led to the worse of times, as the dark side began to differentiate from my personality. My self righteous rage splits into the weak me; powerless, and a distinct projected darkness, that is now separate from me. If you get to this point, choose wisely and not based on insecurity.
Another thing that helped me, was I did not try to be a charismatic leader using the personality firmware enhancements, to mold others, via the charisma of the unconscious induction.Luckily for me, my environment was not conducive to this. Rather I saw myself as a writer doing this privately. The problem with doing this from a leadership role, is it may start out fine, but when you reach the cross roads, the conditioned external reinforcement and feedback, that you have groomed in others, will make it harder to make the correct choice. This appeared to happen to Koresh. It was hard to give up his externally induced inflated ego, due to the expectations he created in his followers.
To give one an idea of how any person, can be all the characters; it has to do with internal firmware which span the range of human nature. Men are composed of half genes from the mother and half from the father. Men have both male and female firmware at birth. Men have a female side, albeit, these are less conscious and developed in men. The White Horseman is male, while the symbolic white lion, which symbolized wisdom, is female. The Divine Woman is part of the female side of the white horseman; psychic pregnancy. He is wise and within his inner wisdom was the potential for an inner self update; her child. The child will become the white horseman.
If you merge with the drama; external, the good and evil firmware blend into composites which are hard to differentiate; self righteous rage. If you choose to separate the ego, the firmware start to differentiate and take sides, with you vulnerable; birth pains. The child is caught up to God and to his throne is symbolic of a die cast for the future. This future potential of the child is the Whitehorse man. It amounts to a firmware induction from the inner self that eventually turns the tide, but first others thing need to happen.
The four horseman symbolize four cycles of the psychodrama, with the firmware within, changing and evolving during each cycle. When I completed the puzzle, I ended up with what appeared to be a large batch of spare parts that did not fit into the story. Later these were understood to be the introduction, that sets the stage, that I called the Gospel of Freedom.