I feel whole for the first time in my life.

[Spirit of Light]

Or he could travel to Carribean or Afrika.

You have some problem with my sexuality ?

 

[ADigitalArtist]

Hey I know this year has been tough for you in many ways and so I'm really happy you've been able to have these breakthroughs in understanding yourself. Good luck on your continued journey.

 

[Spirit of Light]

Hey I know this year has been tough for you in many ways and so I'm really happy you've been able to have these breakthroughs in understanding yourself. Good luck on your continued journey.

Thank you @ADigitalArtist
Yeah 2022 has been awakening year for me. Not just spiritually but for me as a person and i guess i have opened up to who i am

And actually a lot because of people in RF

 

[questfortruth]

You have some problem with my sexuality ?

I do not like the modern trend to be confused in every major aspect of own personality.

 

[Subduction Zone]

Thank you @Subduction Zone
People have their right to say what they think about this but for me i re-discovered something i had put away for many years due to fear.
Asyou maybe remember when i come to RF, ii was very homophobic but now i realize it was out of fear for showing the real me. I carried a form of secret.

I don't know exactly where on the scale i am, but right now i am probable closer to Pansexual, but i will not openly say I am that yet.

I do not remember your past. I guess that is a good thing. I know that I had a bit of a homophobic past myself.. When one realizes that people are just people those fears and overreactions tend to go away.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

You have some problem with my sexuality ?

How is putting some makeup on a change in your sexuality? Are you into men now? If so, okay. But what does makeup have to do with it? Does wearing makeup turn you on sexually?

 

[Spirit of Light]

I do not like the modern trend to be confused in every major aspect of own personality.

You are allowed to feel what you do, but you can not deside what is right for me or others to feel when it comes to our own being.

Maybe you don't like seeing me express who i have felt like for a long time, but did not dare to show out of fear for negative comments.

Personally i accept your views

 

[Spirit of Light]

How is putting some makeup on a change in your sexuality? Are you into men now? If so, okay. But what does makeup have to do with it? Does wearing makeup turn you on sexually?

Actually i don't see it as a wish to have sex with men but i realized i fall in love with personalities, no matter gender. So in that way i am open to men yes.

 

[Spirit of Light]

If someone here in RF should think, maybe Seeker have found a Bi-sexual side about him, i will not reject that comment.

A lot of my past has been to reject my self and any feeling i might have had for other genders or same gender as my self

I know i am not straight anymore anyway.

 

[Brian2]

For the first time in my life i am actually feeling whole as a human being.
A few days ago i started wearing makeup and nail polish, as you guys already have seen a bit about in my other OP. But i never said anything about the full feeling it made me have.

When i looking in the mirror after i put on the makeup i see a person i recognize as me....i didn't do that before without the makeup
My mind has gone silent and it relax, i don't feel a need to have outbursts of frustration anymore. So now i know why i lashed out on people in discusion and debate....because i was not whole.

I am not a transexual person, i don't feel as a woman and i don't see myself wearing woman clothing

Did i "come out of the closet?" To be honest from my side, i don't actually know yet, give me a little time and i can answer better.
But if you have gone this phase in life before, and gotten out of it as someone who come out as something differently sexually, feel free to explain if you think i just got out of the closet sexually in any way. I need a bit of guidance i think.

Yes i do trying to find my sexuality.....i am clearly not as straight as i thought i was

 

[Kenny]

For the first time in my life i am actually feeling whole as a human being.
A few days ago i started wearing makeup and nail polish, as you guys already have seen a bit about in my other OP. But i never said anything about the full feeling it made me have.

When i looking in the mirror after i put on the makeup i see a person i recognize as me....i didn't do that before without the makeup
My mind has gone silent and it relax, i don't feel a need to have outbursts of frustration anymore. So now i know why i lashed out on people in discusion and debate....because i was not whole.

I am not a transexual person, i don't feel as a woman and i don't see myself wearing woman clothing

Did i "come out of the closet?" To be honest from my side, i don't actually know yet, give me a little time and i can answer better.
But if you have gone this phase in life before, and gotten out of it as someone who come out as something differently sexually, feel free to explain if you think i just got out of the closet sexually in any way. I need a bit of guidance i think.

Yes i do trying to find my sexuality.....i am clearly not as straight as i thought i was

Why does something you wear defines you?

 

[Spirit of Light]

Why does something you wear defines you?

When you have been hiding the real you for your whole life out of fear for what others think, even the smaleste change one dare to do, like makeup, do awaken those other feelings one actually have.

So to me I realized I am not straight male from this experience.

 

[Vinayaka]

20? Jeez Louise, I can't replicate the libido at had at 20...

Not sure many can!

I started going downhill at 14.

 

[Kenny]

When you have been hiding the real you for your whole life out of fear for what others think, even the smaleste change one dare to do, like makeup, do awaken those other feelings one actually have.

So to me I realized I am not straight male from this experience.

I wonder if we go by "feelings" that we have it becomes like the waves tossed by the winds of the feelings of every moment.

 

[Vinayaka]

I am 45 year old

Sounds more like a mid-life crisis then.

 

[Spirit of Light]

Sounds more like a mid-life crisis then.

It is not, I found the real me because I dare to live out my sexuality

 

[Debater Slayer]

While I wish you the best on your self-exploration, I believe one should be mindful not to potentially minimize the difficulty and sometimes the physical risks that many face when coming out about their sexuality by mistakenly referring to a display of makeup as "coming out" about sexuality—unless said display is indeed rooted in sexuality.

Nothing wrong with exploring one's personality and preferences even if they are not sexual, of course.

 

[Brian2]

It is not, I found the real me because I dare to live out my sexuality

At 45 most people know what gender they are and what sexual preferences they have.

 

[RabbiO]

It is not, I found the real me because I dare to live out my sexuality

Maybe.

None of us here, as far as I am aware, knows you in real life. We only know you as you have presented and revealed yourself on the forum.

It is apparent that you are, and have been, on a self journey for a long time. What exactly that journey is, and where it might lead I cannot say and I’m not sure you really can either. You’ve expressed certitude before and backed away from it.

I’m sure you’ll keep us informed. I wish you safe passage,

 

[We Never Know]

For the first time in my life i am actually feeling whole as a human being.
A few days ago i started wearing makeup and nail polish, as you guys already have seen a bit about in my other OP. But i never said anything about the full feeling it made me have.

When i looking in the mirror after i put on the makeup i see a person i recognize as me....i didn't do that before without the makeup
My mind has gone silent and it relax, i don't feel a need to have outbursts of frustration anymore. So now i know why i lashed out on people in discusion and debate....because i was not whole.

I am not a transexual person, i don't feel as a woman and i don't see myself wearing woman clothing

Did i "come out of the closet?" To be honest from my side, i don't actually know yet, give me a little time and i can answer better.
But if you have gone this phase in life before, and gotten out of it as someone who come out as something differently sexually, feel free to explain if you think i just got out of the closet sexually in any way. I need a bit of guidance i think.

Yes i do trying to find my sexuality.....i am clearly not as straight as i thought i was

"I am clearly not as straight as i thought i was"

Then would you say that kiss didn't prove you're not gay(maybe). Remember that conversation here...

What do you as a religious person think. (Everyone are welcome to answer)