I dont understand. If you accidently broke all commandments, god would forgive. Since you did so intentionally, what is the justification for his forgiveness in unconditional love?
Spiritual growth is when you follow gods commandments as best you can. If you break one accidently, then that is growth towards a stronger relationship. When you intentionay cheat or break that commandment, that harms the relationship.
If you intentionally killed just because, I can see unconditional love as forgivess. Since you killed to test god, I dont see how that can be forgiven unless you asked.
When you ask you are spiritually growing, admitting what you did. Since you did this intentionally against god, what is the justification of the revelation?
I mean. If one can be forgiven for intentional actions, one can sin all the time and everything will be fine.