Interesting. Would 'Deism' describe your beliefs?Well it all starts with mathematics because when I see mathematics I see something metaphysical, something absolute and transcendental in every regard. My long time interest in Pythagoreanism is what brought this into me as I value numbers beyond all else. When I was an atheist this always stuck with me because here I am disregarding metaphysics yet the one thing I value and use with certainty and utmost faith is the one thing that I know for a fact is metaphysical.
So when I began contemplating the existence of gods I was always taken away by the mere concept of a monad, an originator of numbers and metaphysical absolutes. If there is order in something metaphysical and it offers absolutes then why is it agency and intent is thrown out of the question as well. So it naturally progressed from that and slowly began making me try to legitimize my atheism constantly while also trying to engage in things people deem spiritual.
Furthermore the concept of a god to me is a very over hyped and blown completely out of proportion. Gods merely provide man with a way of legitimizing and understanding order and to extend it beyond that is of great error. Christians and the atheists they spawned from the wretches of their own community have only perpetuated this lengthy cycle of bickering over an irrelevant concept of a metaphysical being.
Do you have any thoughts on things like souls?