@ Mock Turtle
I kind of left you hanging with what I said about the cats being the Light of my life…
Please allow me to explain why my religious beliefs are not always the Light of my life.
First off, I am supposed to believe that God is always good, no matter what happens to me. That is difficult because that means accepting that whatever happens to me was in my best interest, even if it causes undue suffering.
As believers, we are supposed to believe that if things do not go the way we want them to, God had something better in mind. It is like there is always another Entity involved in everything we do, a third wheel.
Like right now, I am waiting for something to happen, but if it does not go as I hope it will, I know I will be very disappointed and I will have to accept that it was God’s Will... It is a constant struggle to believe in God, not a walk in the park. I can be grateful when something good unexpectedly happens but the flip side of that is when I am let down so badly, I always attribute it to God as long as I did everything I could to make it happen as I wanted.
Sometimes I blame myself and get angry at myself if I think I made a mistake, but if I did the best I could have done I have to believe it was God’s Will that it did not turn out as I had hoped. But how do I know I could not have done better?
If I did not believe in God, I could not blame God or get angry at God, so I do not know what would happen. Maybe I would always blame myself and/or I might blame someone else if they are involved. I used to do this before I had a firm belief in God. It was not pleasant, but I am not sure always having God as a third wheel in every interaction is any better. As believers, we are supposed to believe that if someone else lets us down, not only was it God’s Will but we still have God to turn to because God will never let us down. But where is God? I cannot locate Him on my GPS tracker.