I suppose that was a poor choice of words. I'm not "trying" to believe any more than I'm "trying" to not believe. It would be more accurate to say that I feel like I'm supposed to try to figure it out one way or the other. I find the subject fascinating. The Bible, historical references, archaeological discoveries that correlate. Things not easily dismissed in my opinion and at the very least deserve the consideration of an open mind. Believer, non believer, matters not. Anyone on either end of the spectrum who believe or not believe without occasional doubt or question are fooling themselves imo.
Supposed to? Like a duty or obligation?
What an odd thing, if that is it!
As for archaeology, (though that may not
be your word either) of course there are
correlations between the bible and actual
people / places / events. If history fascinates
a person, why not. I like history, geological as
well as human.
The bible is a sort of semi historical novel, with
a lot of magic realism mixed in.
The
history in the bible sometimes is reasonably
accurate, other times total fantasy. So it is not
especially reliable, and needs to be cross referenced.
The
supernatural parts such as a burning bush are of
course not verifiable. Other supernatural accounts such
as, obviously, the flood, not only cannot be verified, but rather,
all known relevant data as well as any sort of reasonable
calculations that might be made, indicate that the story
is just a story.
As for doubt or question- we do see fundies who are
hermetically sealed against any doubt or question;
for lo, such are the ruin of any fundamentalist's beliefs.
People of normal intellect will always have questions
and doubts, and not just religious ones.
What are you trying to figure out?
"is there some sort of god" is unanswerable
"is the entire bible true" is a lot easier to answer.