This I agree with, with the addition that we also see with clarity and get a touch of what we could and hopefully will be after our death.
I think there is a truth to this. Rather, more how I've come to see it is that what "heaven" is, who we are in that state, is fully possible right here and now. I find looking to an "afterlife" to be a distraction from the Eternal in every present moment. Looking for heaven, not realizing you're already there.
When you say separation, I read "metaphysical distinction from". Do I misapprehend? You are saying that your experience leads you to say we are fundamentally of the divine essence? Panentheism or something akin to it? I am happy to be incorrect in my understanding of what you are saying.
I would say in speaking of God I align more with a panenthiest view, yes. I see Creation arising from God, and God in all that is, so there is both transcendence and immanence. I particularly like that because it is paradoxical, and the nature of God is paradoxical. Pantheism is too "scientific". Theism tends more to too removed from the world, too aloof. God is far too much Present to be wholly transcendent save for a few miracles here and there dotted throughout history. My experience of God becomes far too immanent to think of God in terms of "up there" somewhere looking down from above.
As far as "separation" goes, my view is that the only thing separating us from God is our perceptual sense of self. We see ourselves as separate from others, and we imagine God as some entity "out there" like an "other", and that becomes the reality of our experience. Until we let God accidently come blasting through some crack we allowed. Then the Light that shines there tells you in no uncertain terms, God was never anywhere but fully Present the whole time.
Experience has shown to me, that all the times God is "hidden", is simply nothing other than us not seeing. We don't see, because we are turned inward facing our own mind and thoughts, looking to them to see God; the right idea, the right concept, the right belief, the right practice, stopping this or that, etc. All the while God is standing right there waiting for you to turn around and simple see. Stop the nonsense world of the imaginary mind-world, and see Reality.
That is when the separation dissolves. It was only our minds looking to itself to find God in the mind.
What you seem to not understand is that no true experience of God invalidates any part of previous true experiences of God.
That is an incorrect assumption. If I said anything that sounds like that, it certainly doesn't reflective my thinking. I do understanding that all experiences of the Divine are valid. How we understand what they are however, unlike the experiences, are not Absolute.
The understandings we have when we are young about mystical states, is not the end of our awareness growing. We tend to reify our understanding of these experiences as "what it was". That understanding is valid at that time, but that understanding can grow and deepen with age and experience. I value the truth of what it was to me and that time, and the times following it. Why would we invalidate our thoughts and feelings and ideas we held when we were young? We were young.
And if that were the case, how could you look at what you have now as the real truth compared to the previous illusion with any confidence?
I don't. I had a perceptual understanding of things then, and I do now. And I will in the future, yet another level of understanding building on the previous experiences. I would not hopefully invalidate what I am saying today because it's not what I don't yet see tomorrow. It's perfectly valid for me to say what I see now, based on the wealth of my previous experiences and ideas. I'm also not going to invalidate myself tomorrow by claiming right now I have the real truth. What I do have, is a fuller understanding. That's not an absolute.
You've opened yourself to the idea of everything before being false, so there very well could be a level beyond what you currently claim that shows actually the reality you see now is the illusion, ad infinitum.
Yes, that creates quite the trap for us if we think in those terms. I think a lot of people do.
I imagine that whoever the researchers you subscribe to who claim that non-dualism is the pre-eminent form of mystical experience face much the same.
I don't want to go the route of debating sources at this point, rather I would point to my own personal experiences. I recognize different depths of experiences. I value them all as equally Divine and perfect and whole. There are what I can handle, it seems. It is a mistake for me to say "this is it" and assume there is some end to God.
Meister Eckhart maintained his orthodoxy unto his death, and vociferously fought allegations of heretical understanding of his words.
Yes, and critics there were! This is what happens when one pushes beyond the bounds of acceptable theologies the scholars have decided teach us of God. "Authorities say", he was fond of musing.
It is a constant experience when I read your posts where I'm nodding my head, agreeing and then...
lol! I love it.
you go completely off the rails. Despite your claim of superior mystical insight into the divine, it feels more like we were climbing together and you just decided to jump off the side of the mountain. Any sense of new height you gain is false.
Well, I'm not sure where you have gotten the idea I am claiming superior insight. I have insight, yes. So do you, I am sensing. You have insight to share as well. I like seeing where discussion can lead and what either of us may learn from each other.
As far as my claim that, "God is not other to me, but my very Breath", is off the rails, I'll try to put in another way. When there is experienced a dissolution of that boundary between you and God, your heart and God's heart beat as one. You breathe as one.
Interestingly, as I was typing this just now, I recall a quote I read from Meister Eckhart probably about 6 years ago I used to love, but had not thought of in years. Let me quote this and see if you see the same thing I just said about breathing as one.
"The eye through which I see God is the same eye through which God sees me; my eye and God's eye are one eye, one seeing, one knowing, one love."
That is absolutely beautiful, and absolutely true. One breath. One heart. One mind. One seeing. One knowing. One love. "I and my Father, are One".
Hah, me too. Luckily, that stuff we don't want reinforced isn't our personal essence, it is as you say, illusory. Our inner chaff removed from the wheat, the impurities burned off in purgation, etc.
Yes, burning off the impurities is the removing of the illusions. That is the spiritual path.
But I am human, my spirit is human, and when I am with God my "me-ness" doesn't diminish. I'm more me than I've ever been, more fully human, and I know the perfect me to come in the fullness of eternal unity.
I think there is something that may help get past the understanding that the self "dissolves" into God. The "unique self", that "me-ness" is still present, but it is the true Self. It becomes your "authentic self".
The illusion is not incorrect ideas, but a
misperception of ourselves and reality. It is an optical illusion of sorts. Like as you are saying that in finding and connecting with God you are "more fully human," and I'd add "alive", is what it means to be "purified". "I was blind, but now I see", is a common refrain. The scales of illusion, the illusory world of our imagined reality, falls off and the eyes see what was there all along. It becomes perfectly obvious to us.
At a point, being Adam in the Garden alive in the world of God's creation, gives way to the quiet of the night and losing yourself wholly in God where you are both here on earth in this life, and in Eternity.