TheKnight
Guardian of Life
No, my parents like Rush Limbaugh. Rush Limbaugh was sent by The Evil (or perhaps is controlled by it) to drive true conservatives to liberalism, and to mislead pseudoconservatives to the republican party. Do you honestly believe that Rush believes the stuff he says?
And females are not the result of The Evil, although lust often is. Females are just something that happened to be there for The Evil to use as a tool. Males probably get used too. Notice that most men only lust after women that are bad for them, and most women only lust after men that are bad for them.They get on msm during school in the middle of classes, without any sort of computer with them? O_OWhy? It's not like they're auditory. Oftentimes they aren't even clear messages, I just feel that something is wrong and usually my thoughts focus on one subject (ie, a particular girl), and I'm usually confused and have trouble making sense of my thoughts (I did develop a primitive picture-writing system that helps with this, though. Different shapes represent different feelings. Usually expressing my feelings in shapes clears them up, since I can't describe them with words). Most people would just call them "emotions" or something like that, I don't because I don't see the feelings as coming from me. If sexual attraction is natural (which it usually is), this is perfectly natural.
Why are you describing it that way? There is no external force or "Evil" that attempts to make you lust after girls. Your body, that God created, was designed to have natural sexual attraction to members of the opposite sex. That attraction is not a bad thing.
Rush Limbaugh, though you may disagree with him, is not necessarily controlled by some external evil force. I have the slightest feeling that maybe you need help with your emotions. Learning what your emotions are and how to react to them can be a very helpful exercise. I think you could benefit from a counselor or therapist of some sort. If you're unwilling, then at the least consult your parents about your emotions. Have them talk to you about those things in life which are going to be important to you. Both physically and emotionally.
It's not clear whether or not you have any mental disorders (although it sounds likely), but perhaps you simply need some guidance and direction.