What do you mean? Don’t know how much more reality you need. Don’t understand your question.
I hated my Dad, God showed me I hated him because he corrected me and called me out on it.
After I got saved, I wasn’t a scoffer anymore but the hatred was there and I didn’t know where it was coming from. After God showed me I could see that it was true and the Word of God broke through years of denial and justifying my hatred when it was really that. My Dad and I have a great relationship since.
That isn't what I would call reality. It is about my subjective experiences and thereby my *opinions*. It doesn't show anything about the world, but only my own personal psychology.
Why do you think it was coming from something outside of you? It seems to me that you were emotionally confused and figured something out.