Phew, quite a lot of replies. I'm not sure I've entirely digested things, but I've learned a few things I didn't know.
@Quintessence This is one of the reasons why I like modern Paganism. I just am unsure of fitting in it, being agnostic and generally speaking unsure of what I want to do. I've seen people saying that if one doesn't believe in gods they're not Pagan and so on. I don't know how they thought they had the authority but... Yeah. I don't know, I'm a bit lost at the moment. I still regard nature/environment as being central to my life. I don't worship it, but revere it.
@Vouthon Didn't know this about Catholicism. It must be difficult for someone to do this though, I can imagine. Sometimes one gets ostracised by others for following the conscience because it's not conforming to what is accepted as doctrine. It's great however that personal conscience is recognised. Perhaps there's some examples with Saints doing such? I want to look into this, out of interest.
@Rival So you're saying Zoroastrianism isn't really dogmatic then? Are there moral guidelines or is it more focused on worship (or other, I don't really know much about it)? I admit of being quite ignorant about this religion.
@LuisDantas Ideally, I'd rather not follow something dogmatic. I'm not sure which religions are considered as such apart from a few. I just am puzzled as to how some people can live in seemingly contradiction to their religious authority and not somewhat feel weird about it. I don't know maybe it's just because I am out looking in. Or overthinking it. Perhaps it's as simple as to say that conscience often wins out over dogma.
@9-10ths_Penguin True, the issue arises when one is truly at odds with something in the religion. What if someone was gay and their religion said it was a sin... But they feel it isn't? I don't know, it produces cognitive dissonance for me.
@crossfire That might be good advice but I am truly terrible at symbolic stuff. I really don't get it. Or at least I think I don't get it. I just end up endlessly questioning myself and my interpretation and causing anxiety.
@idav True, but some religions commend high standards and all too often when not following them, one is rejected from other followers or questioned. Are you a true (insert religion)?
@Laika That's perfectly fine. To be honest, a lot of ideologies can fit in my question so I appreciated your input.
@Orbit It's a solution... But I feel religion fills an important aspects of (some) human needs. There are non-dogmatic religions, so perhaps that is my solution?
@Vinayaka It's a great approach. I don't feel well when tied up to dogma.
@ShadowFire Thank you for the detailed answer, I am trying to find my core values and have sort of started to stand for what I believe in. I'm not sure however what this means, religion-wise. I just feel like one big "I don't know" for everything regarding that.
@Sees I agree, I am fine when it involves people or even some other topics. But when it comes to religion, I feel discomfort. Perhaps it's because you don't expect friends to force their views, or that in a lot of topics there's no right or wrong... But some religions expect certain conduct and there's doctrines, or even a culture which can make one feel alienated if not doing the same as others. Regardless, perhaps dogmatic religion are just not reconcilable with me.
@Pastek I appreciate your honest answer. I found it very difficult when I was trying to be a Muslim, because I care for how these people are treated and whether they have the right to chose what to do with their life. I mean I'm sure you know what happens to gays in certain countries, I can't turn a blind eye to that, even if I were to accept God doesn't approve of the act. So I sign petitions and such.
@arthra I didn't know this. To be honest, I am not that knowledgeable about Baha'i. I knew that one thing I disagreed with was the view on homosexuality but didn't know one could support the rights within secular society. It was just an example, but I'm glad you responded to it, because I found the response interesting. I just googled something to clear things up about participating in politics so you don't need to answer back. I'm glad to see one can take some social justice causes.
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Is it best then that when one feels cognitive dissonance to abandon the religion? Or can something be done, is it best to persevere? I'm fine with disagreements among individuals, it's when there's dogma and hard rules that I disagree with, I experience uncomfortable feelings. Like I am going against something here and it could mean trouble. I'm still not sure what this anxiety is.
I know many people deal with this, I just don't really know how. Like secular Muslims supporting gay rights or Catholics taking birth control/not having children. They just live on, but I am puzzled to how. It seems like a contradiction to me. Perhaps conscience takes priority? I don't know.
I still don't have a clear cut answer for myself but I am getting some different views and angles in the replies so it helps!