MissAlice
Well-Known Member
This forum is not an easy place for me to word feelings or "experiences" especially on one where everyone seems very academically bright.
I'm not sure how to word these feelings. I still remain a great skeptic and do not believe in any creationer but there is a still this strong "feeling" of maybe wanting to believe in something? As a child I had trouble going to my grandmother's churches and making sense of a god who was both loving and in my logic evil or that which made to make his creations only to destroy or torture them. I realize now not all faiths believe in this yet it's still intersting the amount of faiths who deeply and revelantly believe in such a case.
To move on, I've recently been more and more disturbed of death than I used to be. These couple of years I've lost family members and friends whom I took for granted. I have gone to support groups and therapists. Still bothes to me this day. None of them can help me and I don't think anyone can.
I'm not sure how to word these feelings. I still remain a great skeptic and do not believe in any creationer but there is a still this strong "feeling" of maybe wanting to believe in something? As a child I had trouble going to my grandmother's churches and making sense of a god who was both loving and in my logic evil or that which made to make his creations only to destroy or torture them. I realize now not all faiths believe in this yet it's still intersting the amount of faiths who deeply and revelantly believe in such a case.
To move on, I've recently been more and more disturbed of death than I used to be. These couple of years I've lost family members and friends whom I took for granted. I have gone to support groups and therapists. Still bothes to me this day. None of them can help me and I don't think anyone can.