To my horror the entire room was spinning in the darkness and making me dizzy. As the darkness around me was spinning...
Well I,m not sure but it sounds that the last part was the ending of a projection. Perhaps the first part was a dream made by your subconscious and because the intense fear you had, the dream was cut and you projectable double tried to return to your body and suddenly you partly became conscious of this returning.
when you realized the returning of the projectable double and because you didn't have much control on it (just like my first experience) you started to spin and return back.
high pitched voices were screaming that I never had to enter there again.
That shows you were really in the projection part! Hearing high volume noises is on of the characteristics of exiting (in the beginning) or returning back. take a look at this part of the Astral Dynamics book:
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Fear produced by unexpected or heavy exit sensations,by unexplainable astral noises and voices, or simply by exposure to the out-of-body environment represents a significant barrier to OBE.
Please do not expect this to happen when you first get out of your body. Worrying about this could easily cause your own subconscious mind to manifest it.
I think this is what happens in most cases, considering the sensitive out-of-body environment and the effect that fear can have on it. The dweller can happen in a great many variations, but is usually a combination or variation of the following: Immediately after exit, you find a shadowy,menacing humanoid shape, usually all featureless black with burning red eyes. It may just stand there motionless, or it may take a few steps forward and make threatening gestures. It may be silent or may breathe heavily and loudly. It may snarl, growl, giggle, or laugh. It may even speak and order you back into your body, often by name. It may threaten you with doom and gloom if you continue with your projection. The classic dweller monster never attacks or harms a projector.
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Falling made the separation happen spontaneously, perhaps as it was no longer being hindered by whatever kept me from succeeding, an unexpected surprise.
exactly that was the thing that simulated projecting and made your projectable double exit!
None, no details. I know I dream, as I have REM and get awakened on occasion by what I assume are nightmares, but the content is a mystery.
you mentioned you have The REM phase so surly you have dreams but perhaps most of them stores in you subconscious so your conscious can't reach the memories that easily.
I suggest you write your dreams even if it's a word.even if you remember nothing(which is not true!) try to write keywords.for example write fear,darkness etc.ask yourself:what did I see?who did I see?write your feelings just write something! That will tame your subconscious to transfer more memories to your conscious next time you return to your body!
had been suffering for days with what might be called nowadays 'night terrors' as I'd have nightmares of falling or monsters or other vivid nightmares to the point I didn't want to go to sleep.
Those are the dreams I exactly saw when i was a child!
Unfortunately I still have night terrors ! I expected them to finish in my childhood but they have rooted in my adult age and further!It really hurts and sometime they make me crazy! I see black shadows in my room and scream in fear.Usually I wake up seeing myself screaming fro nothing while i have intense fear!Hope I can get out of it coz it's really annoying.
Ever since, I've not remembered very much at all from dreams, but the nightmares stopped. It was some kind of mental defense mechanism.
It sounds your subconscious scared your conscious with such a dream!yep perhaps its a defense mechanism and that's why you don't remember much.That's why I say your conscious is scared! after that your subconscious started to have most of the Shadow memories and you conscious came out with nothing! try to condole with it and send signals to your subconscious, to show it you want your dreams!!!
writing them ,even keywords, is the first step.after a while you will have long vivid dreams back in your conscious!!
Your astral 'universe' is what you make of it, pretty much unhindered by outside influences. Eventually you are able to venture outside your own little 'construct' into regions that are not controlled by you, but even there you will only see what you are prepared to see, ready to see.
Yep its somehow made by myself! That was the point YmirGF gave!I should try to get out of my own creation to improve my skills.and your right in other realms we can see what we are prepared to see.
Personally I am unsure whether or not the Astral is the true spiritual realm or a intermediary realm between the physical and spiritual, but I feel it may be more complex than that simple division.
me too!:areyoucra it's really not that easy to say what it is.I guess it has other realms inside it that's why it has lower astral or upper astral! anyway I agree with Robert Bruce on this,it sounds more logical:
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I call the nonphysical dimensional level closest to the physical universe the real-time zone. This is, naturally, the dimensional level the vast majority of projectors find themselves in when they first project out of body. The real-time zone can best be thought of as a buffer zone or intermediary area dividing the physical universe from the astral dimension proper. It shares some properties of the physical universe (a direct and objective real-time reflection of reality) and some properties of the astral dimension (a fluid, nonphysical environment).
The astral dimension is the next closest of the unseen dimensions to the physical universe. The astral flows from the real-time zone, but is best thought of as being completely separate from it. It is divided into seven major levels or planes, each containing many subplanes and internal realms. The astral dimension spans the universe, but for all intents and purposes is totally nonspatial.
The astral dimension does not overlay the physical universe as precisely as the real-time zone does, especially at its higher levels, but it occupies the same space nevertheless.
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Your English is good, and this is the best thread I've seen yet on RF, real spirituality, so Frubals.
Thanks friend.Happy to make a good thread on RF.