Yes I do blame God when I suffer or my loved ones suffer or worse yet die. My loved one just happen to be my cats and I have suffered mostly because I have lost so many, more last year than ever before in one year.
Why do i get angry at God and blame God? Well, because God created this material world in which humans and animals suffer and die, so it is obvious God is to blame, logically speaking.
Job 1:21 And said, Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return thither: the Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.
Why
blessed be the name of the Lord" who taketh away? That makes no sense at all.
How about when things really go well in life for me? Well, I will let you know what I would do when that ever happens.
Nevertheless, I try to be thankful to God for the small things I have, like the cats that are still alive and healthy and all the wild animals and birds I watch on my deck. I am thankful my husband is still alive and that I have good health and economic security for life. On the surface it does not seem like I really have that much to complain about, but feelings are not on the surface, they are just below it.
Usually, after I have an outburst at God I realize I was wrong and God is good regardless of my suffering, or is He?
I have a new thread I am going to post that is related to your OP. I already wrote it but it won't be released till the weekend, so stay tuned.
The thread title will be:
What’s up with God? Is He really after us sending us tests?