I do find fault in your efforts to deny, evade acknowledging
or accepting responsibility for yourself.
Pretending a carrot is not alive just because it is
not in the soil?
You do hire people to kill for you, "personally" or not.
By your standard you could buy into a mutual fund that makes
money from human trafficing, arms smuggling or producing
meth, and have no responsibility or tinge of conscience.
You've no part in the displacement ( death ) of the
plants and animals, ie the wildlife, to make room
for row crops?
"As long as I dont know / it was not specifically
for me"?
I have heard of rationalizing, but that would do
as a wiki entry.
I understand you see things bit different then i do, that is normal.
Ofcourse i would never put money in to illigal activities as you mention. That is really morally wrong.
I do not take part in human life whenit comes to farming or animal death. I can not take responsability for those who choose to work with those things, But as you maybe know humans need food. And yes i do eat vegetabiles because Buddha said it was ok to do so. Yes it might give me karma, but that is something every human must live with when on earh, even enlighten beings who are here do need to eat something.
Can i avoide eating? Maybe by learning a technique calde bigu. but that is not a part of buddhist teching.
When we speak on intention it means we do not kill on purpose.
Will living as a humn acumulate karma? YES every day, but we can we can mke it less by trying the best we can. Am i doing wrong? yes probably every day, but i try to fix it.
But where i find your post good is that you make me think if i am one a right track in life, you make me go back to basic teachings and see if i can find fault in my practice. and that is good.