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Nothing my eye, Something for sure
Last few days i opened myself to the possibility of God. Then i got to watching those David Attenborough nature documentaries and i lost all sense that there are any divine attributes to nature existence.
One day nature seems to have a quality of feeling to it. Next day nature's raw, brute force indifference, and sheer savagery kicks me back into reality.
I have been close to death a few times, so i felt compelled to seek the divine. I have had major illnesses for the last 17 years, and they have been a suffering so brutally indifferent to me that i just cant conceive of God existing anymore.
There is a major letdown to this course, and also a major sense of liberation from religious demands.
Anyone else go through these kind of experiences?
My family imparted to me a religious mindset, and a desire for holiness. They rubbed off on me that way. But for the life of me, i dont see God anywhere.
One day nature seems to have a quality of feeling to it. Next day nature's raw, brute force indifference, and sheer savagery kicks me back into reality.
I have been close to death a few times, so i felt compelled to seek the divine. I have had major illnesses for the last 17 years, and they have been a suffering so brutally indifferent to me that i just cant conceive of God existing anymore.
There is a major letdown to this course, and also a major sense of liberation from religious demands.
Anyone else go through these kind of experiences?
My family imparted to me a religious mindset, and a desire for holiness. They rubbed off on me that way. But for the life of me, i dont see God anywhere.
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