Trying to return to Satanism

[Sutekh]

As someone who is mostly LHP at the core, I think I sort of look up to the RHP, due to social reasons.

Conventional religious institutions such as Churches are also used for "social reasons" as well.

 

[Sutekh]

What if, though, by watching porn and being in essence addicted to it, I am following the right hand path? Binding myself to just another set of rules.

Technically I am no expert at answering this question but I understand of what you mean. Porn however does not necessarily have a set of rules, of course we can say that Porn isn't a religion. But hypothetically let's say what if Porn was the Objective Universe in general with the flow of natural Law and what if Porn was perfectly mainstreamed within that law of nature in the Objective Universe? Let's say what if we had a normal approach to this new Objective Universe where porn is included? Hypothetically we would become the herd following the natural Law of Porn. But let's say hypothetically that Porn is completley separate from the Objective Universe that differs from Natural Law? Let's say hypothetically that Porn is not well received as it is perhaps to this day? We would then be breaking away from the Natural Law and proceeding further upon this taboo which goes against the flow of nature. If you watch Porn and are addicted to it then their is no "set of rules" in which you are following. It is your own choices of what you do in life, you are simply responsible to your own general well being. Addiction however can greatly effect ones general well being by doing other things productively, I myself suffer from Addiction to Porn as well however Sex has always been part of Human nature pertaining to our very species. So it is perhaps normal to do things that some of society might find disturbing. I technically do not find parts of non mainstream sexual practices and behavior to be classified as "deviant" instead I look at it as perfectly normal.

 

[Sutekh]

Another fact on Addiction, if you are Addicted to something your mind and body can both loose control depending on the outcome, rules then do not exist if you look at this logically. So in essence you're not technically binding yourself to a new "set of rules" by being addicted and watching Porn.

 

[Liu]

Whether or not one finds a specific thing good or bad or ambivalent to one's own well-being doesn't determine whether one is LHP or RHP, no matter whether that thing is seen as good or bad or ambivalent in mainstream society.
What makes one RHP is letting others decide on what position one should have, and LHP is about making up one's own mind.

And one can certainly say here in the case of porn that it's something ambivalent. It's natural to like it, it's pleasant and can help with stress-relief etc.. It can even be used as a tool for learning more about oneself (e.g. how one reacts to certain kinds of porn, how one's thinking differs depending on whether one is turned on or not, ...). But if it becomes an addiction, one loses control over it.

So I'd say, don't feel guilty or disgusted about watching porn per se. But if you see that too much of it is detrimental to you by hindering you from other things, then you have to do something about it if you are truly a LHPer, i.e. someone whose spirituality is focused on themself.
I don't know you well enough to tell you what exactly would be best for you to do. But I'd recommend a combination of not beating yourself up about watching porn in and of itself, but giving yourself a kick in the butt and stop if it becomes too much.

 

[VioletVortex]

Whether or not one finds a specific thing good or bad or ambivalent to one's own well-being doesn't determine whether one is LHP or RHP, no matter whether that thing is seen as good or bad or ambivalent in mainstream society.
What makes one RHP is letting others decide on what position one should have, and LHP is about making up one's own mind.

And one can certainly say here in the case of porn that it's something ambivalent. It's natural to like it, it's pleasant and can help with stress-relief etc.. It can even be used as a tool for learning more about oneself (e.g. how one reacts to certain kinds of porn, how one's thinking differs depending on whether one is turned on or not, ...). But if it becomes an addiction, one loses control over it.

So I'd say, don't feel guilty or disgusted about watching porn per se. But if you see that too much of it is detrimental to you by hindering you from other things, then you have to do something about it if you are truly a LHPer, i.e. someone whose spirituality is focused on themself.
I don't know you well enough to tell you what exactly would be best for you to do. But I'd recommend a combination of not beating yourself up about watching porn in and of itself, but giving yourself a kick in the butt and stop if it becomes too much.

You are right. The Left Hand Path is about self control, the ability to be one's own god and ruler, and to not let others decide for you what is right or wrong. It's about knowing well enough yourself what is right or wrong for your own self.