Sick as a dog.

[jeager106]

Just got out of the e.r.
Blood suger is really bad, over 600 points, near dead.
'Docs wanted to admit me but I wanna die at home with family.
IF I die that is.
Frankly I'd have to get better to die.
Prol'y a good idea to quit drinking Coca Cola huh?
Better than booze. I'm out of booze. Son hid it from me, :<(
I have some drugs tho. :>)
Prescription stuff it helps me to keep calm.
My p.t.s.d. is really bad now, current events ya know. Triggers it.
It's awful to be so very afraid and there is no reason to be afraid.
p.t.s.d. Fear for no reason at all.
I pray to my God to make the fear go away.
It's a year now since my detective partner shot himself in the head.
Why in hell did he do that?
We saved each others lives many times. Gunfights ya know.
We went through so much together and I wasn't there for him and I feel so damned guilty
No one understands p.t.s.d. unless you have it.
I get so very afraid and there is no one to talk to about it.
My son wants me to get admitted to rehab again but I don't want to.
It's awful to go through withdrawal and shake so bad and can't even hold down water.I'm sorry to whine
and cry like this please forgive me for being a wimp.
I'll be o.k. after the shakes go away.
It gets better. Maybe?

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this. Are you in therapy? Do you have a pet? It might be a good idea to get a doggy. They're great for those struggling with PTSD and many other mental health issues. There's absolutely no shame in feeling broken. You're not whining at all. You're a human being. Your feelings and experiences are valid.

 

[jeager106]

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww


THANKS!

You made me feel better.
PTSD will never go away but it can get better.
YOU MEMBERS ARE TRUE FRIENDS.

 

[Brickjectivity]

No, its fine to write, and it helps other people to understand a little better. Also if you do accidentally die, then it would be great if you could come back and describe what its like. No pressure though. I hope you feel better.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww


THANKS!

You made me feel better.
PTSD will never go away but it can get better.
YOU MEMBERS ARE TRUE FRIENDS.

Aww, you're welcome. I'm glad I could help you feel better. Always feel free to share what you're going through. We care about you. *hugs*

 

[columbus]

As much as you and I disagree I always feel bad when somebody else is feeling bad. I hope things work out better for you soon.
Tom

 

[jeager106]

By the way. I must confess something and I do believe you members
here will understand where many others will not.
Fact is I've been condemned by a few men that I no longer associate
with and I think you people will "get it".
My dear friend is a gay man. I am not a gay man.
I'm not even close to being a gay person.
Me like'm females. All kinds, all shapes, sizes, colors, large and small.
Me like'm wemmin.
Got that?
So why can I not like, even LOVE, my gay buddy?
No I'm not even close to being sexually attracted to my gay friend
but why can't I love him for who he is?
I mean, WHAT is wrong with sharing love for him AND his partner?
I just got out of the e.r., Suger is bad.
My gay friend came to see me and held my hand and comforted me.
So is that bad?
I'm not gay, never had a gay experience, so why can't I love my
buddy?
You know the kind of love I mean. He's my friend.
One year ago my detective partner shot himself and it bothers me
to this day.
We saved each others lives when we were detectives.
I miss him.
I'm sad.
No one understands when the lead is flying and I'm so damned
afraid to this day.
Funny thing is I'm a gun person.
I have many guns and thousands of rounds of ammo.
I could never, ever hurt anyone.
I've been in 13 gunfights.
I never, not once, fired a bullet at another person.
I just couldn't.
I suffered terribly. My back's been broken 4 times, 3 concussions,
smoke poisoning, agent orange poisoning, right leg is crippled from it.
As I get older the numbness gets worse and I fear I'll loose the
use of that leg one day.
Well so what?
I can still go fishing and talk to you fine folks. :>)

 

[jeager106]

THANKS FOLKS. :>)

 

[Lyndon]

I suggest a switch to diet coke, that or water, powerade zero is ok. Black coffee. No Ice cream or desserts, you have diabetes don't you, so do I, it takes some discipline, and a sweet tooth is a really bad companion for it.

 

[allfoak]

May you find peace.

 

[Mindmaster]

Just got out of the e.r.
Blood suger is really bad, over 600 points, near dead.
'Docs wanted to admit me but I wanna die at home with family.
IF I die that is.
Frankly I'd have to get better to die.
Prol'y a good idea to quit drinking Coca Cola huh?
Better than booze. I'm out of booze. Son hid it from me, :<(
I have some drugs tho. :>)
Prescription stuff it helps me to keep calm.
My p.t.s.d. is really bad now, current events ya know. Triggers it.
It's awful to be so very afraid and there is no reason to be afraid.
p.t.s.d. Fear for no reason at all.
I pray to my God to make the fear go away.
It's a year now since my detective partner shot himself in the head.
Why in hell did he do that?
We saved each others lives many times. Gunfights ya know.
We went through so much together and I wasn't there for him and I feel so damned guilty
No one understands p.t.s.d. unless you have it.
I get so very afraid and there is no one to talk to about it.
My son wants me to get admitted to rehab again but I don't want to.
It's awful to go through withdrawal and shake so bad and can't even hold down water.I'm sorry to whine
and cry like this please forgive me for being a wimp.
I'll be o.k. after the shakes go away.
It gets better. Maybe?

That's a really high blood sugar, I'm amazed you're not in a coma. What did they say of your h1c?

Anyway, hard liquor and wine over 13.5% are OK for diabetics... They'll actually lower your sugar... You can forget beer though... I personally drink "Zero" products mostly the Cherry Coke - I've gotten used to it, lost a ton of weight and feel better. With your blood sugar that high your blood cannot take oxygen well so you are going to be suffering for 3-4 months while the broken blood cells die off. Take it EASY -- there is a real danger of heart attack / stroke due to oxygen deprivation. You should get help for strenuous things for awhile. Switch to low carb paleo diet, you won't miss much -- I'm doing OK with it. I mostly try to avoid processed foot as much as I can, but if I have to eat it I combine it with large hunks of protein or fiber to slow it down and take minimal servings. Having blood sugar that high will also make you stupid basically because your cognitive functions will be impaired. In other words, don't make any major decisions at the moment just get the glucose level controlled. Keep it high and you will be blind, and receive organ failure. So yea, forget the normal coke... it's now poison... beer too... Other than the liquid sugar stuff you can really have anything you want, it's just about portion control. For me, I mostly have to evade enriched flour/corn syrup products -- nothing else really does me in like these. The hardest part for me was mexican food and chinese -- both of which I enjoy massively... I still have no way to eat the chinese, but I found low-carb tortillas and bread so I can have most normal food now. Again, it's mostly portions -- you get used to the smaller eating over time. Better to eat as you need (and burn it up) than to pile a massive plate up.

Anyway, I'm recently diabetic had a 11.2 h1c (275 avg on glucometer) and that was after three weeks of already controlling my diet (after I got out of ER, blurry vision). I guess that it was actually around 500 because I was fainting out, and passing out nearly after doing very menial physical tests. (I was reducing my h1c at about 1.0 a week from there) At least after managing it for awhile I figured out I am not as bad as I thought, so it must have been stacking up for a long time. (Really the worst part of this...) After being normal for a month or so I really can just feel the blood sugar shoot up, it was terrible that I was living like that all the time. Your whole life will be better once you get that under control...

I cannot really make any comment on PTSD or addiction because I am a control freak (just wired into DNA) and never had either. Get the blood sugar right though, it's actually messing with your brain -- I can't imagine it helping at all.

 

[Revoltingest]

 

[columbus]

Am I allowed to make a Trump supporter joke here, or would that be in bad taste?
Tom

 

[Revoltingest]

I am I allowed to make a Trump supporter joke here, or would that be in bad taste?
Tom

If you're asking for permission....granted!

 

[columbus]

If you're asking for permission....granted!

I can tell, that means it would be in bad taste.
Tom

 

[Revoltingest]

I can tell, that means it would be in bad taste.
Tom

I'm impressed with your correct inference.

 

[Lyndon]

I've got my A1c down to 8.1 should be below 7, but it was up to 9.7, my latest drop was from cutting out the french fries and switching to steamed vegetables at Denney's. Now the very occasional french fries are like dessert to me, once in a while. Unfortunately my Triglycerides are through the roof, too much fat and cheese in my diet (I'm vegetarian) but fat is good for diabetes, bad for heart disease and I have both. Which one will kill me quicker, I guess someday I'll find out.

 

[jeager106]

Aw go fer it.
All in good humor I'm sure.

 

[jeager106]

I admit that I voted for him.
I just couldn't vote for Hillary.
Lesser of two evils I think.
I was almost swayed to vote for her because she is an experienced
politician.

My sugar levels are way down today I'm happy to say.

 

[columbus]

My sugar levels are way down today I'm happy to say.

That's excellent.
My mother-in-law struggles with it all the time. A big part of the problem is that she's 74 and many days just feels like "Ef it, I WANT chocolate pudding!".
I caught her eating a Ho-Ho yesterday.
Tom