dave_
Active Member
I generally keep my cool.By keeping my cool i mean i am very calculating (to the point of cold bloodedness) , i am stable and in control of myself.Occasionally i take testosterone and aromatase inhibitors.When i take those i feel more implusive , more emotional.Literally i feel like when i am in my teens, early twenties.I feel my environment more and i tend to enjoy life more.The way one enjoys more in teens,early twenties.But at the same time with this joy i feel i can't think straight.Again it's like people are dumb in teens (i was dumb and i know lots of others too) and get smarter as they age.In order to gain my intelligence back i have to give up this joy.I still enjoy life but in a different way.Less alive or conscious of my senses , emotions , body etc.I don't remember the last time i felt fear , impulsivity etc but now taking testosterone and i feel again.I know people that are in their 30-50s and still they haven't matured.I think they are also dumb (or not as smart as their matured form)
Perhaps this is just me but i feel other people are the same way.So do you feel like me?Can someone enjoy life and still be smart , stabe , in control?
Perhaps this is just me but i feel other people are the same way.So do you feel like me?Can someone enjoy life and still be smart , stabe , in control?