Sorry if my questions are stupid, but most of what I read on the web about Satanism is almost useless. Books too.
Something odd is happening to me. Today while I was in bed, I got messages in trance from Mary/The Moon Goddess (A luminous lady in a white tunic), that the "Father" is leading me to Satanism; since it's a path of no scruples and no guilt, so it'd be easier for me to forgive myself.
I'm not sure I really need Satanism to forgive myself. My way of thinking is indeed very much LHP: No want of dissolving my ego, a will of growing instead of becoming little, no belief in karma (at least how it is taught), a wish for enjoying life on this world, becoming a minor god (not fusing into the Universal God), not being subject to spiritual authorities, etc.
But I suspect the idea is that in a dark path the only sense of not hurting innocent people is maybe because of pride or to stay well in Society, if that matters to gain something. Or because of some personal affection for some particular innocents. So what do you Satanists think of hurting innocents to achieve your goals? (Independently of what the Law would do; let's leave the Law out of this). I have a problem with that.
Also I'm a little scared of going back to that path, because the last time I've tried, I noticed my feelings were slowly getting anesthetized. e.g. cute things like little kids and puppies didn't seem cute anymore, but contemptible. Did you guys feel the same? In that case how did you avoid that in Satanism?
Also I'm not a fan of dark things, which could be another problem. I mean, being always in dark places, cemeteries, lust for blood and dirt, obsession for gothic stuff and gore, terror movies, etc. Is that really necessary?
So far what Satan himself told me is that his is a sort of Gnostic path (darkness against the Demiurge, destroying this evil world, but enjoying until it's over, etc). And he's the same as Shiva, but Shiva gives a different energy in my experience.
Something odd is happening to me. Today while I was in bed, I got messages in trance from Mary/The Moon Goddess (A luminous lady in a white tunic), that the "Father" is leading me to Satanism; since it's a path of no scruples and no guilt, so it'd be easier for me to forgive myself.
I'm not sure I really need Satanism to forgive myself. My way of thinking is indeed very much LHP: No want of dissolving my ego, a will of growing instead of becoming little, no belief in karma (at least how it is taught), a wish for enjoying life on this world, becoming a minor god (not fusing into the Universal God), not being subject to spiritual authorities, etc.
But I suspect the idea is that in a dark path the only sense of not hurting innocent people is maybe because of pride or to stay well in Society, if that matters to gain something. Or because of some personal affection for some particular innocents. So what do you Satanists think of hurting innocents to achieve your goals? (Independently of what the Law would do; let's leave the Law out of this). I have a problem with that.
Also I'm a little scared of going back to that path, because the last time I've tried, I noticed my feelings were slowly getting anesthetized. e.g. cute things like little kids and puppies didn't seem cute anymore, but contemptible. Did you guys feel the same? In that case how did you avoid that in Satanism?
Also I'm not a fan of dark things, which could be another problem. I mean, being always in dark places, cemeteries, lust for blood and dirt, obsession for gothic stuff and gore, terror movies, etc. Is that really necessary?
So far what Satan himself told me is that his is a sort of Gnostic path (darkness against the Demiurge, destroying this evil world, but enjoying until it's over, etc). And he's the same as Shiva, but Shiva gives a different energy in my experience.