See, here's my problem. I followed someone who claimed to be the "Perfect Master". Basically claiming to be the current incarnation of God's messenger.
He made all these claims to be the one to bring us to God. Lots of miracles were claimed by everyday folks. He implied his legacy was back to Christ.
He had over 1 million followers in 55 different countries. Many more followers than that of Christ in the 1st century.
It seemed reasonable at the time to accept I was led by divine forces to become a follower of this person. This second coming of Christ. His "authority" was justified through passages from the Bible.
So here was this person who had the knowledge I lacked. Since I had no knowledge of God, I was without a position to argue against the claims he made about God.
So unless you know God yourself, you have to blindly accept the authority of one who claims to speak for God.
Jesus and Mohammed are figures from the past. Folks I don't really know. While I met my messenger from God in the flesh and could touch them.
Folks who decided to follow Jesus or Mohammed, did they have the knowledge to critically know if these two spoke the truth about God?
Folks, for their own reasoning decided to blindly accept the authority of someone.
At the time I felt I had as much reason to accept my messenger of God as did the followers of any.
So religions get started from the ignorance of it's followers. Lacking any knowledge of God themselves and having to choose in that ignorance who is to led them to knowledge of God.
sorry to hear that, but you are not the only one who has fallen in to the traps of these evils. However, this can be a useful experience for you and others as well, so that they wouldn't step into those traps.
as stated in Koran, a messenger from God should always justify his stance by logical means or miracles. there is a lot to say in this regard but it would take days to write about it. there are some people who have some powers,but they are not in the right path and misguide and abuse their gullible followers.
even religion itself can be misguiding and there are lots of reasons to this claim.
all religions should be purified from the untrue things that has been added into them by evils throughout history. this is a tough thing to do and I think there is only one person on our planet who is doing this at the moment. because he has the great knowledge required to do so.
Anyway, to make a long story short, to my mind and experience, to gain the knowledge of God, there is no way buy to first:
1- know yourself which will lead to determinism.
2- know the truth about the world that you are living in. Ali Ibn Abitalib, the first successor to Muhammad, has a lot of saying about the world which are gathered in Nahjulbalaghe or 'Peak of Excellence'. but the original or let's say the Arabic words are much better than the translation.
3- Finding contradictions between what God has stated (in all the Holy Books) and what really exists in our world. for example God states that I will answer when you ask or pray for it. unfortunately many people are praying and seeking help from God but there is no answer. people are at war, many face hunger and death,many have fled from their homes, ... so where is God's help????
Definitely we don't know who the real God is yet.
regards