Dream Angel, I just wanted to share this with you. Please don’t take this as any means to sway you to my religion, but I want to just give you a different perspective to consider taking in your search for whatever it is you find yourself looking for.
I view the Divine as an all-encompassing Essence of sorts. It is the energy/spark of life that flows through all. Our spirits are but mere small parts of it. It is us that sort of form the gods. That is, since we are a part of the Divine, not only do we receive from it, but contribute to it as well. I’m not saying that the gods don’t exist, but that our own thoughts, emotions, desires and so on contribute to their existence. We have gods for love, family, war, peace, hunting, work, and so on and so forth. These, according to my beliefs, are the manifestations of Essence of those qualities.
This being the case, then no god is “right” or “wrong”. All paths (religions) are just as valid as any other as ways of connecting to the overall Divine, no matter what form/s you use to worship through. Now this would mean that the “rules” and “laws” written by men about the gods have to be taken with great consideration. Being that so many disagree and that different gods reflect different qualities in men, you cannot just take one religion’s renderings as absolute fact. It takes searching one’s own heart and the willingness to search for the god/s that seem most to resonate with your own spark of Divine that is who you are. Only then can you even narrow down which religion adheres most closely to your beliefs. And for that matter, religion isn't necessary to believe anything, it’s a way to practice worship, so your own beliefs ARE your own religion.
Now, I’m not saying that you should believe all this, as I realize it can be a far cry from what a lot of people are familiar with and therefore have a hard time in mentally digesting, but if one looks at things in this manner they find a way to respect other religions’ concepts of deity, even if we don’t respect their actions with regard to what their deity wants. It also gives less worry about whether one is on the “right” path, as all paths have the same origin and the same destination, it is only the scenery that differs on each. If you can accept this, then you should be able to eliminate all worry about repercussions for choosing the “wrong” path and find your place in whatever religion resounds harmoniously with your spirit. Even if it is just your own and no one else’s.