Oh....... then I'm toast, I'm afraid.
When I reached a certain age the frustrations of life just fell away from me.
I live by the day now, and the World can just go swirling on past me.
My great trials today are to feed the ducks, clean the bathroom, play with the little hounds and then go collect my wife. This afternoon I will snooze in front of the telly.
No frustrations.
If God doesn't like that then I will just have to be in hell, but I will be as content as the pains will allow.
Does Lokman Effendi teach you freely, or does he ask for payment?