Good afternoon. Nice to see you again. I feel like I have a neighbor now.
Thanks for sharing a little bit about your religious background. I was not raised as a Christian and I was never a Christian, which was virtually unheard of back when I was raised in the 1950s and 1960s in the United States, when most everyone was a Christian. As I recall, the statistics is that in the 1950s 95% of people in the United States were Christians. Both my parents were raised as Christians but they both dropped out of Christianity before any of their children were born, so I never saw the inside of a Church or a Bible during my childhood. There was no talk about God that I can ever recall and I never thought about God.
I fell in love with the teachings of the Baha'i Faith and I got caught up in the "vision" of the Baha'i Faith, the oneness of humanity, so I became a Baha'i during my first year of college. It is a long story what happened after that. Needless to say, I was not "engaged" in the religious organization and I did not "really believe" in God. Although I believed that a God existed I had no real connection with God through prayer or meditation or the scriptures. Then about seven years ago, I made a decision to give religion and God another try which was the same time I started posting on forums. It has been quite a journey since that time and I now I "know" that God exists and I know more about God, but I still have "issues" with God, as God is depicted in religious scriptures.
Most people do not believe me, but I never read one verse from the Bible until seven years ago when I started posting on forums, because I never saw a need to. Mind you, I was not even interested in my own religion so why delve into the Bible? The reason I started reading the Bible is because as soon as I started on forums I went to Christian forums and got engaged in dialogues, mostly about the return of Christ. I later branched off into a mostly atheist forum where I spent most of my time before I came here two years ago.
But to double back, I had a kind of spiritual awakening in June 2014 because of a crisis I went through so in the fall of that year I started my own forum. It used to be quite active until I branched off into that atheist forum and was too busy to maintain it. The reason I started a forum was so I could converse with Christians on a neutral ground because I was unable to share on Christian forums without getting moderated or banned for my beliefs. But then I opened my forum up to everyone who wanted to discuss anything spiritual, including nonbelievers and any religion or just believers with no religion. What ended up happening is that I had extensive dialogues with one Christian who became my friend and most of my other posters have been atheists who were formerly Christians.
Since most of my dialogues on forums other than this one have been with ex-Christian atheists I understand many of the reasons people drop out of Christianity, but of course everyone is unique so their reasons are also unique. My other hat and one I wore much longer than my religion hat is psychology, which I studied for many years, so I am fascinated with human behavior and why people think what they think and do what they do.