ZenMonkey
St. James VII
I was born in 1970 ... about 7 years before Elvis died. I never knew Elvis, but I understand a little more than most about Grace, and Graceland, and The tender loving care and the taking Care of Business aspect to ummm ... Life. How else can it be stated? Anyway, I descended from my mothers womb in 1970. That was when my life journey in this valley we call the shadow of death began. I realized my mortality early in life ... I guess around 7 years old. I feared that alone for most of my early years until I picked up the fear of hell years later. Needless to say my era of comfort and peace was short lived.
I've fallen for more than a few woman over the span of my life, and to be perfectly honest, I view woman, err ... Umm ... some woman, those whom I'm able to make a joint connection with on multiple levels. Anyway, they're life, Woman, to put it in as matter of fact way as possible, are life. So, TLC, TCB and what life means to me and likewise this valley some call the shadow of death ... being that we're never guaranteed another day, death, like a shadow, always looming over head, never knowing how or when or where, just the fact that it could all end at any time.
I don't fear hell anymore, but then this valley we compass has proven to be like one, and even on good days nowadays, there is always something hellish about this valley. As a 48 years old, divorced single man, who once desired romance and a life spent next to a woman I love more than my life, I now distance myself more and more as the days go by from becoming too, umm .... involved with anyone. I guess because of how my life is, what I am forced to deal with, and to avoid dragging anyone else into an existence where hope has nearly become a foreign concept. It just seems too dangerous for me to be around anyone I would kill and die for. The danger isn't my own, but rather the danger applies to those I care most for and about.
I deny Jesus' sacrifice, I choose to be accountable for my own life, I have this life and expect no other after. So ... I look and see and feel and embrace and breath life in another way ... the only way I know how at this point ... From a distance, yet so close I can almost taste it on my tongue.
Enough for now. More to come later
ZM
I've fallen for more than a few woman over the span of my life, and to be perfectly honest, I view woman, err ... Umm ... some woman, those whom I'm able to make a joint connection with on multiple levels. Anyway, they're life, Woman, to put it in as matter of fact way as possible, are life. So, TLC, TCB and what life means to me and likewise this valley some call the shadow of death ... being that we're never guaranteed another day, death, like a shadow, always looming over head, never knowing how or when or where, just the fact that it could all end at any time.
I don't fear hell anymore, but then this valley we compass has proven to be like one, and even on good days nowadays, there is always something hellish about this valley. As a 48 years old, divorced single man, who once desired romance and a life spent next to a woman I love more than my life, I now distance myself more and more as the days go by from becoming too, umm .... involved with anyone. I guess because of how my life is, what I am forced to deal with, and to avoid dragging anyone else into an existence where hope has nearly become a foreign concept. It just seems too dangerous for me to be around anyone I would kill and die for. The danger isn't my own, but rather the danger applies to those I care most for and about.
I deny Jesus' sacrifice, I choose to be accountable for my own life, I have this life and expect no other after. So ... I look and see and feel and embrace and breath life in another way ... the only way I know how at this point ... From a distance, yet so close I can almost taste it on my tongue.
Enough for now. More to come later
ZM
