No... I don't think you understand what I am saying... It is my belief that there is no God, and that human life is worthless, along with every other form of life... Everything is going to die, there are no souls and whatnot, and no one has a purpose to make a difference in the world...
I agree with you in some regards; nothing has value...
except what you give it. Nobody has purpose...
except for the purpose they find for themselves.
I think that in some regards, I'm a nihilist. I don't think there's any external force out there that dictates good/bad, right/wrong, precious/valueless, or anything else. However, the flipside of nihilism is that you're free to feel, believe, and act however you see fit without anything being measured against any sort of external standard. While your starting point is a blank slate, you can make whatever you want of it.
If you find a purpose that only has meaning within your own personal, subjective frame of reference, great. Does that purpose have meaning in some objective sense? I'd argue that it doesn't matter whether it does or not. Even if the objective exists or matters, none of us can experience the objective directly; all we have is the subjective.
You have as much responsibilty, power and freedom as you want within the sphere of things that touch your existence. If you think that nothing has value, you're completely correct...
for you, and what you believe about it is all that matters for you. However, any other value system would be just as correct
for you if it reflects how you think, feel and believe. Value is just the product of peoples' decisions. If nothing has intrinsic value, that doesn't mean that you
can't assign things value; in fact, I think it means you can assign them whatever value you want.
I think you can kind of like someone, but it is usually just obsession, and obsession fades, which is why so many people are madly in love, get married, and then get divorced when they realize they were never really in love, they were just obsessed with eachother.
It's unfortunate if that's all you've seen or experienced of love; it doesn't have to be that way, though.
Love does change over time, and it's different for everyone. While a relationship might stop being a mad, passionate affair after a while, it can also develop a warmth, comfort and empathy that wasn't there in the beginning.