hah hah....probably, since I was an atheist when reading through it long ago, you won't much be able to paint a picture that I read it with an urge for it to be one way or the other, lol. I suggest: try to make your thoughts on it less about me, and more about the text.
I strongly suggest to anyone they try, make a serious real effort, to entirely put aside and even forget (if they are able) old ideas about what is there, and just read it with fresh eyes, as if a poem, where you are trying to listen to hear the deeper side of it.
In other words, don't make it about me, or about you, make it about the story itself.
Don't big yourself up, we are talking bible atrosities here
That's precisely what i did, three times with 3 different bibles. I read them, first one when i was 14/15 years of age with a fresh and open mind, I didnt interpret, i didn't apologise for it, but read as written so please don't try and make this about me when you have no idea of my history.