Unification
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Have you stayed in the faith you were born in? What made you look for something else? What's it like to know that 'this is it'? Etc.
Just curious as to how bumpy the road was.
I was evangelized to by a mainstream "Christian" at work. Kind of depressed, living the mundane routine life, near rock bottom. Also meant nothing to me at the time. I went to a church building as I was "told to do," intuition instantly took force within me by the doctrines and stuff making no sense. While I didn't agree with the guys doctrine and stuff, I'm very grateful that my path led to him and for the seeds planted into my mind.
Rather than just give up,
On my own and at home, I denied and rid of everything that I thought that I knew and was conditioned to believe. Also denied a lot of other things to a point where my mind was clear/clean and in a pure state and not influenced or conformed to anything. A sudden rush of what felt like this beautiful energy just flooded within my heart and mind.
I remember when this happened, a random thought came into my mind: I wondered if Jesus ever smiled. Instantly, I smiled uncontrollably. I realized Jesus was a force within me and not an exoteric deity.
There were what felt like lightning jolts going off in my brain where I was hospitalized for three days without being able to see or hear. After every nuerological test, nothing was found. Afterwards, I became aware and awake to all sorts of things I had never known or seen. What I once loved or thought to be alright, became repulsive. What I once had no care for or hated, I now loved and cherished. My mind was radiantly clear and aware, my heart was radically transformed.
Ever since, nothing but love, happiness, peace, joy, self-control, awesome awareness, and all sorts of other awesome stuff and best of all, the journey doesn't end. Don't really care to prove it to anyone, don't really care to have knowledge of it... I know it and experience it and earnestly would love for all to have an abundantly fulfilled and peaceful life and experience.