A little bit of background to show where I'm coming from on this: I've always been more of a tomboy type, being more interested in what society deems masculine. I don't wear makeup, usually don't wear jewelry, refuse to wear high heels, don't care about fashion or vanity pounds or many of the other things women are expected to. However there are occasional times when I feel like I want to "pretty myself up", not for any special occasion or anything I just get the urge. A lot of the time when this happens I'll deny these urges because I feel it would be going against or even betraying the masculine tomboy image I and those I know have of me. As such I not only feel like I shouldn't do it, but shouldn't want to feel like doing it as well.
However today, with some reassurance from my bf, I decided to go ahead and do it. Jewelry, nice top, neat hair, even a pretty skirt that's been gathering dust in the closet since high school (and amazingly still fits despite the weight I've gained). I went out to get a burrito and while I was out I actually found myself standing up straighter, feeling happier and more confident in myself and that attitude and demeanor reflected in my behavior when I ordered food as I was smiling more, smiling wider, and overall felt happier.
Now this all sounds really great and all but here is where my problem comes in. I've been taught growing up that self-confidence should not be based on appearances at all, that it should come from within. I've always had self-confidence issues but most of my life I actually embraced that concept and it's one of the primary reasons why I often refuse to go out of my way to "look pretty" unless I have to, regardless of whether or not I want to because I feel like if I did and gained confidence from it, it would be fake and false. And yet here I am dressed all pretty and feeling better about myself because of it, yet feeling like I SHOULDN'T feel better about myself because of it.
Sorry this has gone on for so long, I know it probably sounds like I'm rambling and I guess I am but well... I'm very confused right now and I hope I'm making more sense than I feel like I'm making.
To get to my point, what are your thoughts on the idea of looking pretty or handsome to boost your self-confidence? Is that ok and if so to what degree? I mean if we are truly confident in ourselves shouldn't we feel the same confidence regardless of how good we look? If appearances change how we feel about ourselves are those feelings ultimately false because they don't, or at least don't seem to, have anything to do with who we actually are as people? Is a person really being true to themselves if any of their confidence is based on how pretty or handsome they look?
What are your thoughts on all this?
However today, with some reassurance from my bf, I decided to go ahead and do it. Jewelry, nice top, neat hair, even a pretty skirt that's been gathering dust in the closet since high school (and amazingly still fits despite the weight I've gained). I went out to get a burrito and while I was out I actually found myself standing up straighter, feeling happier and more confident in myself and that attitude and demeanor reflected in my behavior when I ordered food as I was smiling more, smiling wider, and overall felt happier.
Now this all sounds really great and all but here is where my problem comes in. I've been taught growing up that self-confidence should not be based on appearances at all, that it should come from within. I've always had self-confidence issues but most of my life I actually embraced that concept and it's one of the primary reasons why I often refuse to go out of my way to "look pretty" unless I have to, regardless of whether or not I want to because I feel like if I did and gained confidence from it, it would be fake and false. And yet here I am dressed all pretty and feeling better about myself because of it, yet feeling like I SHOULDN'T feel better about myself because of it.
Sorry this has gone on for so long, I know it probably sounds like I'm rambling and I guess I am but well... I'm very confused right now and I hope I'm making more sense than I feel like I'm making.
To get to my point, what are your thoughts on the idea of looking pretty or handsome to boost your self-confidence? Is that ok and if so to what degree? I mean if we are truly confident in ourselves shouldn't we feel the same confidence regardless of how good we look? If appearances change how we feel about ourselves are those feelings ultimately false because they don't, or at least don't seem to, have anything to do with who we actually are as people? Is a person really being true to themselves if any of their confidence is based on how pretty or handsome they look?
What are your thoughts on all this?