The Sum of Awe
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Having had this curiosity for a long time now, I decided now to make a thread about it because the thought had arisen again. In a sort of way, it relates to the thread called What Lies Behind Thought.
Sorry for the long post:
What is 'you'? This question has been asked so often, and there are many answers to this, but only two of which I found that would make logical sense: (1) A soul, or some sort of observer of your thoughts, activities, etc. and the controller of all you do, literally is you beyond your meatsuit, responsible for your ego. (2) There simply is no you.
I've been finding myself agreeing with the second one, mainly because I can't fit the soul into any of the questions I've asked myself alongside the "What am I?" These following questions are questions that I've asked myself: (1) If my meatsuit had another set of genes or was in some way different, especially if my parents had never met and my mother met another man, would the next 3rd born child be this perception, this consciousness? My answer to it is no, it is an entirely different brain, an entirely different life, an entirely different set of memories. But still, what of my perception?
(2) If there is no soul, why am I not of the brain of the 1st or 2nd born child in my family? Why am I the third born? Why am I not of another species? Why am I of this specific family? Basically: Why am I in this meat suit?
My answer to that has always been: There's nothing that I'm really in, there's nothing really in this flesh, the flesh is all there is, there is no 'I' other than what I call myself, and in fact, 'I' is the only universal name if you think about it, all of us are 'I', that's who I is. But other than that, there really is nothing inside of this body, I does not exist in one body, but the I presides in all bodies, in each individual flesh. It is a name that we all agree to identify ourselves with, and that's all it is, a name, nothing more.
"But I am conscious, obviously" and "I think, therefore I am". Well, just because you think, only means that your thoughts exist, it doesn't mean that you exist.
Most physicalists agree that thoughts and the mind are creations of the brain, just as dreams are, and I very much agree with that idea. And what are thoughts? What is mind? I suppose that we'll start with in order to make it make sense, according to my concept of mind:
Consciousness, or the perceiver: Literally is our senses, our physical senses. We often identify our consciousness or "the perceiver" with our head, popularly believed that this is because our brain is in our head, and the brain is the main source of our consciousness. No, the brain merely works as a receiver, contrary to popular belief that it works as a transmitter, for our senses. Our senses come from our sense organs, eyes, ears, etc. The reason why our head is identified with the perceiver is because the majority of our sense organs are consistent with it: The nose, the ears, the eyes, and the tongue persuade on there. All together, when you are seeing, feeling, smelling, and hearing something all at once (possibly tasting to be included, possibly not, tasting is not as used compared to the other four), it might seem that this is more than just sensing, that this is experiencing, that this is consciousness itself. While it is experiencing, and we simply don't pay attention that "all of these individual senses are working at once", we define it as experiencing and forget what is doing the experiencing: we might think the ego is experiencing, or soul, the I. But really, all that is doing the experiencing is the senses, and just because all of them or most of them are working together, does not mean that this creates an I.
(by the way, while there are more than five senses, I'm only identifying with the common five in here, for many reasons: it's hard to keep track of all five, no need to do more explaining than I have to, and because the main five are just that: main.)
Memories: Memories are reminders of senses of the past, a bundle of senses, or an experience, being re-sensed.
Thoughts: Thoughts are different memories bundled together to make something new, sort of like photoshop, you can cut the head off someone in one picture and delete the rest of the picture, paste some more cut-outs from a picture to create an entire picture full of cut-outs. Thoughts are never new or original, the only thing that can be imagined is something that you have once saw in the past. You may claim thoughts of things that don't exist are creative but, while you can imagine a unicorn, but you have the image of 'horse' and a horn in your head, you simply paste them together and that is a thought.
Self-Awareness: This, if not the consciousness, is probably the next thing mistaken as the I. Self-awareness is the awareness of these thoughts, this consciousness, of an 'I' concept. The self awareness is simply thoughts, there is no recognition, all it is is thoughts of your thoughts, thoughts of your memories, thoughts of your knowledge, etc. But then again, I am still thinking about the self-awareness, this is not my official stance on it, I just haven't thought much about it yet.
So that's my theory (note: not the scientific term for theory). There is no I, there is no perceiver. I'm to answer any questions. If this thread does get any respondents, I might think about the self-awareness more tomorrow and edit this.
Sorry for the long post:
What is 'you'? This question has been asked so often, and there are many answers to this, but only two of which I found that would make logical sense: (1) A soul, or some sort of observer of your thoughts, activities, etc. and the controller of all you do, literally is you beyond your meatsuit, responsible for your ego. (2) There simply is no you.
I've been finding myself agreeing with the second one, mainly because I can't fit the soul into any of the questions I've asked myself alongside the "What am I?" These following questions are questions that I've asked myself: (1) If my meatsuit had another set of genes or was in some way different, especially if my parents had never met and my mother met another man, would the next 3rd born child be this perception, this consciousness? My answer to it is no, it is an entirely different brain, an entirely different life, an entirely different set of memories. But still, what of my perception?
(2) If there is no soul, why am I not of the brain of the 1st or 2nd born child in my family? Why am I the third born? Why am I not of another species? Why am I of this specific family? Basically: Why am I in this meat suit?
My answer to that has always been: There's nothing that I'm really in, there's nothing really in this flesh, the flesh is all there is, there is no 'I' other than what I call myself, and in fact, 'I' is the only universal name if you think about it, all of us are 'I', that's who I is. But other than that, there really is nothing inside of this body, I does not exist in one body, but the I presides in all bodies, in each individual flesh. It is a name that we all agree to identify ourselves with, and that's all it is, a name, nothing more.
"But I am conscious, obviously" and "I think, therefore I am". Well, just because you think, only means that your thoughts exist, it doesn't mean that you exist.
Most physicalists agree that thoughts and the mind are creations of the brain, just as dreams are, and I very much agree with that idea. And what are thoughts? What is mind? I suppose that we'll start with in order to make it make sense, according to my concept of mind:
Consciousness, or the perceiver: Literally is our senses, our physical senses. We often identify our consciousness or "the perceiver" with our head, popularly believed that this is because our brain is in our head, and the brain is the main source of our consciousness. No, the brain merely works as a receiver, contrary to popular belief that it works as a transmitter, for our senses. Our senses come from our sense organs, eyes, ears, etc. The reason why our head is identified with the perceiver is because the majority of our sense organs are consistent with it: The nose, the ears, the eyes, and the tongue persuade on there. All together, when you are seeing, feeling, smelling, and hearing something all at once (possibly tasting to be included, possibly not, tasting is not as used compared to the other four), it might seem that this is more than just sensing, that this is experiencing, that this is consciousness itself. While it is experiencing, and we simply don't pay attention that "all of these individual senses are working at once", we define it as experiencing and forget what is doing the experiencing: we might think the ego is experiencing, or soul, the I. But really, all that is doing the experiencing is the senses, and just because all of them or most of them are working together, does not mean that this creates an I.
(by the way, while there are more than five senses, I'm only identifying with the common five in here, for many reasons: it's hard to keep track of all five, no need to do more explaining than I have to, and because the main five are just that: main.)
Memories: Memories are reminders of senses of the past, a bundle of senses, or an experience, being re-sensed.
Thoughts: Thoughts are different memories bundled together to make something new, sort of like photoshop, you can cut the head off someone in one picture and delete the rest of the picture, paste some more cut-outs from a picture to create an entire picture full of cut-outs. Thoughts are never new or original, the only thing that can be imagined is something that you have once saw in the past. You may claim thoughts of things that don't exist are creative but, while you can imagine a unicorn, but you have the image of 'horse' and a horn in your head, you simply paste them together and that is a thought.
Self-Awareness: This, if not the consciousness, is probably the next thing mistaken as the I. Self-awareness is the awareness of these thoughts, this consciousness, of an 'I' concept. The self awareness is simply thoughts, there is no recognition, all it is is thoughts of your thoughts, thoughts of your memories, thoughts of your knowledge, etc. But then again, I am still thinking about the self-awareness, this is not my official stance on it, I just haven't thought much about it yet.
So that's my theory (note: not the scientific term for theory). There is no I, there is no perceiver. I'm to answer any questions. If this thread does get any respondents, I might think about the self-awareness more tomorrow and edit this.