Demonic Kitten
Active Member
First off let me say that I have been diagnosed with Bi-Polar, OCD, ADD, and Anxiety. I take medicine regularly for it and I am proud to say I have been able to decrease the amount of pills I take each day. I'm an otaku, gamer, and a very curious person. I enjoy studying the different religions, but I also enjoy playing my games and being the otaku I am (reading manga and watching anime). That being said..here is the problem I am having. Sometime I have a hard time separating what I see/read/play and what goes on in the real world, so what it affects who I am. It affects my attitude, my ability to cope with stress, the ability to function in a normal society ... Let's just say it affects my day to day life. I can function, but it is a lot harder to do so. Most people tell me to stop doing those things, but see...here's the problem. I don't want to. When I am more of an otaku and/or gamer my ability to separate the real world and the fantasy world decreases and thus it effects my functionality. On the other hand when I study more religion the easier it gets for me to separate the real word and the fantasy world, but my functionality still decreases.
I just want to be a some-what normal person and I don't want to give up the things that I love in order to do so. The more balanced I am the more I am able to function normally... it's just I have a hard time balancing everything in my life. I used to think that there was something wrong with me (besides the obvious) and maybe that is a correct way to look at it. I think that all this time I was just being lazy... expecting to get something for nothing. Whining and complaining only brought me more depression and stress, which in turn made things more and more difficult for me.
I still don't know what prompted me to create this thread... maybe I need a sympathetic ear or someone to give me a good swift kick in the arse... maybe all I want is for someone to acknowledge my accomplishments instead of focusing on all the things that are wrong with me.
I just want to be a some-what normal person and I don't want to give up the things that I love in order to do so. The more balanced I am the more I am able to function normally... it's just I have a hard time balancing everything in my life. I used to think that there was something wrong with me (besides the obvious) and maybe that is a correct way to look at it. I think that all this time I was just being lazy... expecting to get something for nothing. Whining and complaining only brought me more depression and stress, which in turn made things more and more difficult for me.
I still don't know what prompted me to create this thread... maybe I need a sympathetic ear or someone to give me a good swift kick in the arse... maybe all I want is for someone to acknowledge my accomplishments instead of focusing on all the things that are wrong with me.