St0ne
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I live in a christian country, was brought up on christian values although not forced into christianity by virtue of where I was born christianity has been imprinted on my persona.
I am a Buddhist, atheistic towards the abrahamic god of christ\islam\etc and polytheistic religions, agnostic although doubtful to other ideas of god.
Last night I read a most of an account by Bill Wiese of his alleged 23 minutes in Hell, although I do not believe in Hell to be 100% honest it still managed to stir some fear inside me. The account to me like the bible is not without it's flaws and contradictions but ignoring the lack of credibility to the story I cannot ignore how it made me feel. So last night I made an agreement with all gods. With all my heart I ask that they judge me not by my belief or lack there of in them but by how I live my life as it is not in my heart to believe in them as forgiveness, to repent or any other such things that will apparantly secure my ticket to heaven. It is something I can not do no matter how much I tried or wanted to, it is simply not in me.
For a moment I've ignored all that I do believe in, that I have no soul, hold the key to my own liberation and the very fact that life is suffering and so hell can really be found anywhere. Now all I can do is live as I see fit which is the only honest way I can live, My Buddhist beliefs are honest so I ask for mercy from any god who would send me to hell as I feel I best live honestly, to be the only truely godly way to live.
I am a Buddhist, atheistic towards the abrahamic god of christ\islam\etc and polytheistic religions, agnostic although doubtful to other ideas of god.
Last night I read a most of an account by Bill Wiese of his alleged 23 minutes in Hell, although I do not believe in Hell to be 100% honest it still managed to stir some fear inside me. The account to me like the bible is not without it's flaws and contradictions but ignoring the lack of credibility to the story I cannot ignore how it made me feel. So last night I made an agreement with all gods. With all my heart I ask that they judge me not by my belief or lack there of in them but by how I live my life as it is not in my heart to believe in them as forgiveness, to repent or any other such things that will apparantly secure my ticket to heaven. It is something I can not do no matter how much I tried or wanted to, it is simply not in me.
For a moment I've ignored all that I do believe in, that I have no soul, hold the key to my own liberation and the very fact that life is suffering and so hell can really be found anywhere. Now all I can do is live as I see fit which is the only honest way I can live, My Buddhist beliefs are honest so I ask for mercy from any god who would send me to hell as I feel I best live honestly, to be the only truely godly way to live.