Salam
The reason to me is because if I didn't get off medications, I would be a computer scientist right now working. If I was working as a computer scientist, I would feel better to write books because I took care of myself and so can write books that people won't see as just a person writing who can't take care of himself and has a mental illness and has too much time in his hands.
These books would include proving Quran doesn't allow killing Salman Rushdie and so many other things.
But Iblis tricked me, defeated me, and as a result, the whole world suffers.
Am I the only one? No. Many can do this. But I can too. And I haven't done my duty.
Many of us can save the middle-east and save the world over all from wars, suffering and get rid of dictators. But we are apathetic.
Being a hero in a video game has prevented me be a hero in real life. Getting off medications has made me practically useless to humanity.
I fear death for one and one reason alone. I have to help God's cause and want to help humanity. When I've done everything I can for God and humanity, then I don't mind dying.
The reason to me is because if I didn't get off medications, I would be a computer scientist right now working. If I was working as a computer scientist, I would feel better to write books because I took care of myself and so can write books that people won't see as just a person writing who can't take care of himself and has a mental illness and has too much time in his hands.
These books would include proving Quran doesn't allow killing Salman Rushdie and so many other things.
But Iblis tricked me, defeated me, and as a result, the whole world suffers.
Am I the only one? No. Many can do this. But I can too. And I haven't done my duty.
Many of us can save the middle-east and save the world over all from wars, suffering and get rid of dictators. But we are apathetic.
Being a hero in a video game has prevented me be a hero in real life. Getting off medications has made me practically useless to humanity.
I fear death for one and one reason alone. I have to help God's cause and want to help humanity. When I've done everything I can for God and humanity, then I don't mind dying.