Thank you for your reply
@Katja I have found that in the spiritual path I am on, more and more loneliness arises because I see the world in a totally different way than most other, especially in the forum I notice this (It does not make me different to others, I am still me) But I, when I speak, only a few seem to understand my messages and the meaning behind them, and it always become long discussion of more negative sorts (especially from Atheists I noticed, but atheists are ok people ) So I find it not negative toward me as a person but it creates tension and, to me that is of no use. so it is better to speak with people who cultivate Falun gong, but here I because they understand what I speak about, but here where I live, I do not know other Falun Gong practitioners.