It started a few days ago and came to a head yesterday: a feeling of emptiness. I don't believe God tests us, so that can't be it. I had a doctor's appointment yesterday morning and rushed through my puja and aarti. For the past few days puja and aarti have been hit or miss.
I've been trying to make everything I eat prasad, but it doesn't always work out. I eat some stuff at my job's cafeteria; they prepare all sorts of dishes, so I don't know how sattvic the kitchen is. When I cook at home, often I can offer the food to Krishna then eat. Actually I cook for sustenance, I don't care what something tastes like (yeah, you don't get to 220 lbs being a picky eater), so I don't think it violates B.G. 3.13 when I eat something that hasn't been offered.
But yesterday, for example, I made rice, beans and vegs. in the rice cooker and put it aside. Before I could get to it, my partner dived into the pot. I don't know if it's right to say "hey, you can't eat that yet". My opinion is, that is abiding by "the letter of the law and not the spirit of it", as Jesus commented. I could take my portion and offer it first. Maybe I'm confused and not knowledgeable about what naivedhya and prasadam actually are, getting caught up in that letter of the law thing.
On top of that, I am carb intolerant and insulin resistant. I'm eating way too much carbohydrate. It's been rice and beans; quinoa and beans; pasta and beans; pasta; veg. burgers and meatless chili (not bad, really) but those are soy which I am not supposed to have (hypothyroid and on medication); oatmeal; whole grain bread; more vegs in the past two weeks than I've probably eaten in my whole life (which is not a bad thing by any means).
My doctor recommended yesterday that I lose 30-40 lbs. Exercise is part of it, but I don't know where to go with diet. I haven't had any animal flesh or eggs in about two weeks; since I put on my tulsi kantha. I've got to cut down on the carbs. My health and weight always improved when I ate a paleo diet, but I'm not looking for permission to go back to eating meat, leaves and berries, especially wearing Tulasidevi.
OK, so I'm whining here but also looking for some direction or maybe even a :slap:
I've been trying to make everything I eat prasad, but it doesn't always work out. I eat some stuff at my job's cafeteria; they prepare all sorts of dishes, so I don't know how sattvic the kitchen is. When I cook at home, often I can offer the food to Krishna then eat. Actually I cook for sustenance, I don't care what something tastes like (yeah, you don't get to 220 lbs being a picky eater), so I don't think it violates B.G. 3.13 when I eat something that hasn't been offered.
But yesterday, for example, I made rice, beans and vegs. in the rice cooker and put it aside. Before I could get to it, my partner dived into the pot. I don't know if it's right to say "hey, you can't eat that yet". My opinion is, that is abiding by "the letter of the law and not the spirit of it", as Jesus commented. I could take my portion and offer it first. Maybe I'm confused and not knowledgeable about what naivedhya and prasadam actually are, getting caught up in that letter of the law thing.
On top of that, I am carb intolerant and insulin resistant. I'm eating way too much carbohydrate. It's been rice and beans; quinoa and beans; pasta and beans; pasta; veg. burgers and meatless chili (not bad, really) but those are soy which I am not supposed to have (hypothyroid and on medication); oatmeal; whole grain bread; more vegs in the past two weeks than I've probably eaten in my whole life (which is not a bad thing by any means).
My doctor recommended yesterday that I lose 30-40 lbs. Exercise is part of it, but I don't know where to go with diet. I haven't had any animal flesh or eggs in about two weeks; since I put on my tulsi kantha. I've got to cut down on the carbs. My health and weight always improved when I ate a paleo diet, but I'm not looking for permission to go back to eating meat, leaves and berries, especially wearing Tulasidevi.
OK, so I'm whining here but also looking for some direction or maybe even a :slap: