Assalamualaikum Im a muslim and I hope to get a kind answer as where should I head to now onwards. Ive open a door for myself and so many doors being slammed to my face and Im being left there to my own devices. Ive read the quran over and over and Im searching for hadiths even islam history and hoping in the merciful hand of Allah so that I can feel belong to my religion. I believe in Allah and the Prophet Muhammad. I believe everyone did sin one ways or the others and I believe Allah is all forgiving and islam is just, its just hard to find justice now a days. Every where I go to get answers I felt shun as if Im not relevant. My questions are.
Can I live as a muslimah? How do I pray to Allah? All I want is to be a good person who practice my religion. Why cant people let Allah judge me just as they will be judge too on the day of judgement.
Wa alaikum as salaam wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh,
If you believe in Islam then you are indeed a muslimah.
Prayer is called salah. As a Muslim you are obligated to pray five times a day.
This website may be of some use. Additionally you can pray additional prayers as well as supplications (called duas).
You may read the arabic from a piece of paper
Ahmed Kutty said:
If you are new to Islam and you haven’t memorized anything yet, you may pray while reading from a book or written paper. But you should discontinue this practice as soon as you have learned the basic minimum elements required for fard (obligatory) Prayer.
If you find yourself unable to say these except by looking in a book, you can do so until such time that you are able to recite them from memory. It is important for us to know that Allah does not burden us with tasks which are beyond our abilities.
The basic minimum required reading in salah consists of Surat al-Fatihah and some short surahs, such as the three last surahs of the Qur’an, in addition to what is listed below:
1. Subhana rabbiya al-`azeem (glory be to my Lord, the Great) three times in ruku` (while bowing)
2. Sami`a Allahu liman hamidah (Allah hears those who praise Him) while rising from ruku`
3. Rabbana laka al-hamdu (Our Lord, all praise is Yours) after rising from ruku`
4. Subhana rabbiya al-a`la (Glory be to my Lord, the Most High) while in sujud (prostration)
5. At-tahhiyyat or tashahhud while sitting after two rak`ahs or in the final rak`ah before salam, (which one can read from a book)
This is for your formal prayers, you may read your duas in English. There are specific and eloquent duas that you may search, in both English and Arabic, that move and appeal to you so that you wish to use them, however they can be entirely in your words. Also in times of distress praying outside and in
sajood. I pray either for forgiveness or thankfulness and do so because I feel most humble and sincere in my prayer, there is a saying that man is most close to God in sajood
You may also be interested in Salat Istikhara as it is precisely for such trying times.
The people you speak of are sadly all too common and often this has to do with a certain backwards cultural attitude especially to things they are not comfortable with. Sister I must warn you, you may be met with hostility and ignorance use discretion when talking about your past and when confronted with others.
The Qur'an says of such people
For, [true] servants of the Most Gracious are [only] they who walk gently on earth, and who, whenever the foolish address them, [50] reply with [words of] peace; 25:63
and God willing this is how you should respond
But [remember that an attempt at] requiting evil may, too, become an evil: [40] hence, whoever par*dons [his foe] and makes peace, his reward rests with God - for, verily, He does not love evildoers.
Islam emphasizes morality and ettiquite when dealing with others and this is called
Akhlaq .
Abdullah ibn Amr (one of Muhammad's Companions) narrated:
"Allah's Messenger neither spoke in an insulting manner nor did he ever speak evil intentionally. He used to say, 'The most beloved to me among you is the one who has the best character and manners.'"
There are many stories about the Prophet being confronted and literally being pulled by the collar by angered and uncouth Arabs and his humble and tender response is always the ideal by which we should seek to follow. If you are interested I could post some specific examples.
I do not wish to speak from ignorance but I have read, in the past, about
Mukhannathun and the Prophet protected them from harm. From the page it says that Imam Nawawi stated
The mukhannath is not only the one who is known to be promiscuous. The mukhannath is (also?) the one who looks so much like a woman physically that he resembles women in his softness, speech, appearance, accent and thinking. If he is like this, he would have no desire for women and he would not notice anything about them. This is one of those who have no interest in women who were permitted to enter upon women.
Also it might be interesting to note that
Iran carries out the greatest number of sex changes in the world.
I would suggest that you contact Shaykh Hamza Yusuf or Suhaib Webb and tell them about your situation. They will be able to give you detailed responses.
