Spiderman
Veteran Member
I keep having dreams that I'm dying!
One recent one was I was in a city during the Spanish Civil war that was occupied by Communists! Although I was against communism, I just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time and we got carpet bombed by the dreaded Luftwaffe repeatedly!
It was just a dream, but one of the most highly disturbing experiences! You could feel the planes flying over you. The planes would fly low enough that the houses would shake! Everything was dark too! No sunshine in the dream! It was so depressing and miserable!
Everything was shaking and you could hear explosions everywhere, your adrenaline going, terror, your heart pounding, women screaming, babies crying, windows shattering, people buried beneath rubble, the smell of burning facilities, loud obnoxious alarms, people paralyzed with fear, people literally paralyzed from injuries, the smell of burning flesh, the screams were bloodcurdling! To call it a nightmare is an understatement!
The fear of being incinerated wasn't bad! But to be completely burned head-to-toe, to lose my skin and be scarred up, and burns are so painful for so long after you are burned, and how burned victims are treated for their severe burns is just agonizing.
Plus, medical care wasn't available. The sick in the hospitals were being bombed. People were alive and slowly suffocating, or they could breathe but couldn't move anywhere. People had broken limbs, shattered bones, arms out of socket, nobody to offer them medical care, no morphine to numb pain.
I wanted to help but was incapacitated. In the dream, no bomb actually struck me, but I was hoping if one were to land near me, I prayed it would land on my head. In the dream I realized new insights on the total and complete horror , nightmare, terror, so many lives are, on a daily basis! I began to envy all the dead people!
( I realize what it feels like when you make the decision to kill yourself, because I jumped off a three story building , and got taken away for laying down in front of an oncoming metro transit train in the middle of the night! But this dream brought new perspectives.)
Last night, it was also very unpleasant! I felt like I was one of many people in our world, dying all alone! It's hard to describe , but it felt like simply an extremely unpleasant situation. It was a dream of being in bed, unable to move, paralyzed, convulsing, but unlike a grand mal seizure, conscious of what was happening. I knew I was dying, and all I could reflect on was the people I hurt, that I was dying all alone, my body would probably be rotting and decomposing by the time anyone found me.
I was having visions of other people dying in agony all alone, filled with similar guilt, terror, possible loss of soul in some lake of fire (as countless hundreds of millions believe awaits the majority of people).
It was very unpleasant!
But lately, I keep dreaming I feel great pain in my heart! In each dream I have certainty I'm dying! I don't wake up from the dream in the middle of it, and sleep through the night, but have very good recollection of it. I have been in IRTS facility for less than two weeks, and lost count of how many of those dreams are dying (usually of a very painful heart attack), but the dream of the carpet bombing was just dreadful! Beyond words can describe, I feel for people who get bombed after a dream like that.
I've seen war movies and real footage of people getting bombed! But never quite been able to feel quite the empathy as after that dream! It makes me really think war sucks, but also not like my countries decision to drop all those bombs on Iraq and elsewhere, bringing so much agony to civilians, babies, pregnant women, and children!
Do you get many dreams that you are dying? For me it is more just in the last two weeks really. But it really makes me every time, feel really badly about the ways I have hurt, discouraged, frightened, or in one instance "petrified" someone!
One recent one was I was in a city during the Spanish Civil war that was occupied by Communists! Although I was against communism, I just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time and we got carpet bombed by the dreaded Luftwaffe repeatedly!
It was just a dream, but one of the most highly disturbing experiences! You could feel the planes flying over you. The planes would fly low enough that the houses would shake! Everything was dark too! No sunshine in the dream! It was so depressing and miserable!
Everything was shaking and you could hear explosions everywhere, your adrenaline going, terror, your heart pounding, women screaming, babies crying, windows shattering, people buried beneath rubble, the smell of burning facilities, loud obnoxious alarms, people paralyzed with fear, people literally paralyzed from injuries, the smell of burning flesh, the screams were bloodcurdling! To call it a nightmare is an understatement!
The fear of being incinerated wasn't bad! But to be completely burned head-to-toe, to lose my skin and be scarred up, and burns are so painful for so long after you are burned, and how burned victims are treated for their severe burns is just agonizing.
Plus, medical care wasn't available. The sick in the hospitals were being bombed. People were alive and slowly suffocating, or they could breathe but couldn't move anywhere. People had broken limbs, shattered bones, arms out of socket, nobody to offer them medical care, no morphine to numb pain.
I wanted to help but was incapacitated. In the dream, no bomb actually struck me, but I was hoping if one were to land near me, I prayed it would land on my head. In the dream I realized new insights on the total and complete horror , nightmare, terror, so many lives are, on a daily basis! I began to envy all the dead people!
( I realize what it feels like when you make the decision to kill yourself, because I jumped off a three story building , and got taken away for laying down in front of an oncoming metro transit train in the middle of the night! But this dream brought new perspectives.)
Last night, it was also very unpleasant! I felt like I was one of many people in our world, dying all alone! It's hard to describe , but it felt like simply an extremely unpleasant situation. It was a dream of being in bed, unable to move, paralyzed, convulsing, but unlike a grand mal seizure, conscious of what was happening. I knew I was dying, and all I could reflect on was the people I hurt, that I was dying all alone, my body would probably be rotting and decomposing by the time anyone found me.
I was having visions of other people dying in agony all alone, filled with similar guilt, terror, possible loss of soul in some lake of fire (as countless hundreds of millions believe awaits the majority of people).
It was very unpleasant!
But lately, I keep dreaming I feel great pain in my heart! In each dream I have certainty I'm dying! I don't wake up from the dream in the middle of it, and sleep through the night, but have very good recollection of it. I have been in IRTS facility for less than two weeks, and lost count of how many of those dreams are dying (usually of a very painful heart attack), but the dream of the carpet bombing was just dreadful! Beyond words can describe, I feel for people who get bombed after a dream like that.
I've seen war movies and real footage of people getting bombed! But never quite been able to feel quite the empathy as after that dream! It makes me really think war sucks, but also not like my countries decision to drop all those bombs on Iraq and elsewhere, bringing so much agony to civilians, babies, pregnant women, and children!
Do you get many dreams that you are dying? For me it is more just in the last two weeks really. But it really makes me every time, feel really badly about the ways I have hurt, discouraged, frightened, or in one instance "petrified" someone!
