Are my prayers to victims of murder healthy in your opinion?

[Spiderman]

My answer is an absolutely yes. Now, it's absolutely got the appearance of being creepy , but it was the most healing thing I ever experienced.

The only reason it hasn't born more fruit is I'm rather wounded and grew up in jails and mental institutions. The growth has been remarkable, but if I would have stayed sober like the Kami asked, I would have grown more.

Basically, extremely long story short, someone who got raped and murdered for an act of kindness kept repeatedly showing up in really intense inspirations , dreams, and visions , that I ignored for months , knowing myself to be schizoaffective mentally ill.

But eventually on May 9, 2015, in jail, I decided to write a Novena letter to her. 9 days of prayer. As soon as I started writing, an intensity swept over me ,and I couldn't stop writing. That 9 days of prayer turned into a Novena that never ends.

I didn't realize I lived in the city of the first victim of the guy that killed her ,( was one interesting coincidence) until roughly two years later. Basically, her message is that the media, the entertainment industry, and the culture glorifies being sick, being worthless, being shallow minded, being politically correct, and it's causing people to go through the things she went through , get trafficked, get tortured, get murdered, families break up, crime increases, people become monsters etc.

This was while ISIS was crucifying, burning , and decapitating people, and girls who weren't Muslim were being raped by over 20 men a day as young as 8 years old, tortured to death, buried in shallow graves, and everyone had to be politically correct about it. So, I was to pray about that as well, and enshrine some of those victims.

All I can say is: "Jesus said, judge things by their fruits". My personal relationship with women (and sometimes men) that got violently murdered, did me far FAR more good than praying to Jesus (as far as making me less angry, making me less of a pervert, getting me off pornography, making me less envious of others, less hateful, getting me more disciplined, and more mature).

And it wasn't just some fantasy dream world thing either. A whole bunch of unexplainable phenomenon, signs , and coincidences took place on a regular basis after I started praying to dead people.

Yes, good nutrition, good hygiene, good exercise routine, medication, staying sober are all very important. But even those qualities didn't do as much good as enshrining and praying to certain people on the other side (most of them ravaged , trafficked, or violently murdered).

Thoughts?

 

[Aštra’el]

It is if it makes you stronger.

 

[Spiderman]

Yes, I read the Bible. I'm aware there is an Old Testament verse that says not to contact the dead.

But the Old Testament commands people to do the opposite of God's words many times and is extremely racist and sexist.

The old Testament sanctions slavery and even killing everyone in the city but taking the virgins as sex slaves.

So I don't see how anyone with a rational compassionate mind could actually use the Old Testament as their rule of life or take it seriously as a reliable source of history (or more importantly, a good source of sound morality. The Old Testament sanctions some of the worst scorched earth policies, racism, and genocide I've ever heard of).

So, my point being, just because the Bible says something, I'm not going to follow a book that justifies the most sickening behavior and goes against my conscience.

The Bible said not to contact people in the sense of summoning spirits from Sheol or practicing witchcraft. I communicate with spirits in heaven that have been redeemed and are connected to me, because Scripture says we are one body in God, branches connected to the vine that is God.

They are more alive now than ever. What I do when I contact the deceased, is actually not condemned in Scripture.

 

[Spiderman]

It is if it makes you stronger.

It does

 

[Spiderman]

But the Bible contains many good things too. I don't bash most of it. The little bit that is toxic though does a lot of damage.

 

[Saint Frankenstein]

There's a litany of things you do that aren't healthy. You need to be asking a mental health professional that.

 

[Unveiled Artist]

My answer is an absolutely yes. Now, it's absolutely got the appearance of being creepy , but it was the most healing thing I ever experienced.

The only reason it hasn't born more fruit is I'm rather wounded and grew up in jails and mental institutions. The growth has been remarkable, but if I would have stayed sober like the Kami asked, I would have grown more.

Basically, extremely long story short, someone who got raped and murdered for an act of kindness kept repeatedly showing up in really intense inspirations , dreams, and visions , that I ignored for months , knowing myself to be schizoaffective mentally ill.

But eventually on May 9, 2015, in jail, I decided to write a Novena letter to her. 9 days of prayer. As soon as I started writing, an intensity swept over me ,and I couldn't stop writing. That 9 days of prayer turned into a Novena that never ends.

I didn't realize I lived in the city of the first victim of the guy that killed her ,( was one interesting coincidence) until roughly two years later. Basically, her message is that the media, the entertainment industry, and the culture glorifies being sick, being worthless, being shallow minded, being politically correct, and it's causing people to go through the things she went through , get trafficked, get tortured, get murdered, families break up, crime increases, people become monsters etc.

This was while ISIS was crucifying, burning , and decapitating people, and girls who weren't Muslim were being raped by over 20 men a day as young as 8 years old, tortured to death, buried in shallow graves, and everyone had to be politically correct about it. So, I was to pray about that as well, and enshrine some of those victims.

All I can say is: "Jesus said, judge things by their fruits". My personal relationship with women (and sometimes men) that got violently murdered, did me far FAR more good than praying to Jesus (as far as making me less angry, making me less of a pervert, getting me off pornography, making me less envious of others, less hateful, getting me more disciplined, and more mature).

And it wasn't just some fantasy dream world thing either. A whole bunch of unexplainable phenomenon, signs , and coincidences took place on a regular basis after I started praying to dead people.

Yes, good nutrition, good hygiene, good exercise routine, medication, staying sober are all very important. But even those qualities didn't do as much good as enshrining and praying to certain people on the other side (most of them ravaged , trafficked, or violently murdered).

Thoughts?

I don't see why not. If god hears prayers, I'm sure he wouldn't be picky on who you and others are praying for?

If you mean praying to as in your talking to the victims, how I see spirituality, I see no problem in it. Usually, we talk to people we know or love, say deceased loved ones or friends or so have you. I did read, though, that some people or religious pray for people who have murderer and such to heal them (or god healing them through their prayers and cleansing rituals). I personally don't see anything wrong with that.

With the first, I don't see a conflict. With the latter, there is a christian conflict with talking with any person not living in the flesh... somewhat like people turn evil or something when they no longer in the body. I never got that if we were all spirits, so I think that is your call. Who knows.

 

[Spiderman]

There's a litany of things you do that aren't healthy. You need to be asking a mental health professional that.

I agree with the first sentence.

But enshrining and praying to the dead has decreased an enormous amount of wicked , disordered, sociopathic behaviors , and kept me out of jails and mental institutions, more than anything, including professional help.

Also, I would not have my own apartment, because prayers to someone deceased caused some behaviors that lead to an agency finding me an apartment.

It would not have happened were it not for the name of the second wife of the person I was praying to.

Getting this apartment allowed me to be there for my neighbor when his brother died, buy him a new car part, and now help him as his mother is dying.

I was never generous or compassionate. I've given him roughly 500 dollars since his brother died because I felt it would make a murdered girl happy, and when someone stole my phone and backpack, I gave him the description of the guy, and he tracked him down and got my stuff back.

He just happens to have the last name of the raped and murdered girl I felt told me to buy him the car part, and I didn't realize that until after the charitable deed. It was simply, I lit a candle before her , and she seemed more radiant than usual.

I said to myself, I give the money to Hawkins. Then after the charitable action, it dawned on me that my best friend's last name is Hawkins.

It's a true friendship. And he's of a different ethnicity , which is a bonus because people have accused me of not liking black people, but my best friend is black.

Emperor Haile Selassie I identify as being a Twin flame with Miss Hawkins, and he had great devotion to Saint George. Then I find out the Empress had a Baptismal name that meant George.

Selassie is the Rasta God Incarnate, final Christian Emperor I keep enshrined. After texting myself something about a Biblical figure (Rebecca) needing a rebel flag, I found an Ethiopian Ormo flag. They were rebels.

It has a Sycamore tree. A man climbed the Sycamore tree to see Jesus.

The most important book of my life came from a place called the Sycamore tree retreat in Swan valley Montana, dated the year Haile Selassie was dethroned by Communists.

The book came out January 1 1974, Denise's final birthday. She's the one who got me started. A 1974 penny was the first coincidence and I found a 1974 quarter the day I found the Ethiopian flag.

My probation officer was Tenbit, an Ethiopian Israelite name that means "Prophecy". Matthew , the Apostle I'm named after , was martyred in Ethiopia, by an Ethiopian Emperor.

A visitor saw Selassie on the outside of my door and said he was from his country. He was amazed at my Oromo flag because he wore it around his neck.

The day I printed out those pictures, a different Ethiopian approached and saw the plant I bought for my shrine as I left the Library.

The only reason I bought the plant was someone handed me a 50 dollar bill while I signed. That never happens.

I told him it's for a girl who went to her eternal reward. He said " here, have two dollars for your Angel's shrine".

Then he mentioned he was from Ethiopia. I said "you won't believe this". I reached in my backpack and said, " I'm supposed to give this to you". I handed him one of my pics of Selassie.

He gave me another 4 dollars and said "the king of Kings".

You think that could possibly be bad?

 

[Spiderman]

I don't see why not. If god hears prayers, I'm sure he wouldn't be picky on who you and others are praying for?

If you mean praying to as in your talking to the victims, how I see spirituality, I see no problem in it. Usually, we talk to people we know or love, say deceased loved ones or friends or so have you. I did read, though, that some people or religious pray for people who have murderer and such to heal them (or god healing them through their prayers and cleansing rituals). I personally don't see anything wrong with that.

With the first, I don't see a conflict. With the latter, there is a christian conflict with talking with any person not living in the flesh... somewhat like people turn evil or something when they no longer in the body. I never got that if we were all spirits, so I think that is your call. Who knows.

I pray the victims reach the first degrees of beauty, power, glory, perfection, and euphoria, that their dreams come true because their dreams were stolen.

I attend mass only because I feel these victims of torture and murder are asking me to, that receiving holy communion for them helps them, then I offer them the treasures of Holy Eucharist afterwards and chant the names of some of over a thousand people enshrined in granite and statues at Capitol Hill.

The victims of Ted Bundy and victims of trafficking and murder said they were "Capitol Hill Queens". I called them that for years before being moved to Saint Paul next to Capitol Hill.

The structure is modeled after Saint Peter's Basilica, Rome. The security say it's haunted and they avoid certain floors because of ghost sightings.

In Shinto, Spirits of the dead can be restless and suffering when murdered or suicides, and cause mischief or be unhealed until they are enshrined.

When Japan actually practiced Shinto on average, it was common to see on streets small spirit homes, structures reserved entirely for Kami to dwell, rest, and heal.

I was enshrining people in the woods and practicing Shinto, even surrendering to the Japanese Emperors and war dead, before I even knew the Religion of Japan was what I was practicing.

 

[Spiderman]

Oh and , Haile Selassie was from the house of Solomon that King Solomon started with one of his wives, the Queen of Sheba.

At his time it was the oldest surviving dynasty on earth and he taught me a lot because he was a very penitential man.

I had printed those images of Haile Selassie out minutes before the Ethiopian approached me.

Saint George is the Saint Ethiopians give credit for their military victories and is the patron Saint of Ethiopia , on some Ethiopian flags.

I discovered this shortly before George Floyd was murdered in our Twin Cities and is now painted over buildings, has a square and street named after him, and is possibly the most single scandalous thing a cop has done in modern America, on film, in broad daylight, in front of people begging him to stop as his victim begged for air.

Here in the Twin Cities George Floyd is Saint George, and his image omnipresent practically, as a symbol of representing victims of atrocities.

Shortly after his death I picked up a prayer that said "Saint George the dragon Slayer" at the foot of my bed.

Just now, as I'm in the middle of my prayer there is a single piece of paper on my stove in front of Georgann Hawkins.

It refers to Naslund Knights , an undead military, as Selassiean Knights of Saint George.

Selassiean sounds similar to the holy order Selesian founded by Don Bosco. Don't bosco was known as "clown of God" always doing tricks and sometimes wearing a red nose even at mass.

The prayer mentions "Rudolf Hoss", a war criminal who said he repented when he first experienced love. He received last rights on my birthday and hung April 16.

I called him " Rudolf the red nose Reich dear " because Hirohito is now Santa, because I discovered was ordained Christmas , and I was filling out a Christmas gift list out to him as I discovered that.

What Rudolf did was terrible, but Shinto says such vicious people essentially are like unloved abused puppies. If you keep kicking them they get more vicious.

In Japan they enshrined their war criminals but next to them is a shrine to the victims of the criminals. Where Guam battle took place, it isn't any more in honor of the Japanese dead that their shrine honors and their rituals are for. It is for their enemies just as much.

April 16 was when Rudolf hung. I just learned today April 16 is birthday of Eleanor Rose, mother of Denise.

It's also birthday of Pope Bennedict which I learned on April 15th this year due to a dream about Benedict getting his fisherman ring stolen by Eminem.

I proceeded to find a 22 K gold ring before Hubert Humphrey dated 1984. 1984 was the day a man "Huberty " got 22 people killed at McDonald's.

It was next to an MM (Miraculous Medal) and a picture of the Pope that got shot feast of our lady of Fatima.

I don't remember placing this prayer on my stove in front of Georgann, who called herself " George" and was from Washington.

It mentions Matthew killed in Ethiopia after I just got done posting about it.

It mentions a lot of stuff that really spoke to me. Wow!