Samael_Khan
Goosebender
My original delusionment with god was way back as a young teen. I am dyslexic (then undiagnosed) so was considered thick, beyond redemption because i could not read the bible. Not the attitude an adolescent needs from good christians. At around the same time as saying "enough" i was also was diagnosed and corrective aids supplied allowing me to see words. A revelation! Books became a passion. Within a couple of years i felt confident enough to read the bible. I read it as a book, cover to cover (not cherry picked as many christians read it) and its all there... All the hated towards difference, all the spite (and much more, genocide, murder, rape, theft, slavery), often instituted or condoned buy god.
1/ why would god want to create worshippers who could treat a god believing child so badly like the sick minded congregation of the church i loved did?
A friends (christian and a theologian) child died a most horrible, lingering and painful death from leukemia.
2/ why would a creator god create a race to worship him and create an incurable disease to make a loyal subject and her innocent child suffer so much?
This got me thinking, sick people in the name of god, innocent children suffering, what sort of god would do this to the human race. I went back to a bible and re-read it. By now it just didnt make any sense and after much thought decided that a god as depicted in the bible is just a load of crock designed to keep priests as top dog and everyone else subservient to them.
Since then i have seen, heard and been involved in several hundred events (some life-threatening) that have done nothing to reaffirm my belief in god but just the opposite, they have strengthened my disbelief to the extent i im now right through Atheism and out the other side. It is no longer a lack of belief, it is evidenced knowledge that no god exists.
Of course should evidence be put forward that i am wrong then it would be worth considering and weighing against the evidence i recognise but i am not holding my breath. In over 10,000 years of recorded god worship no such evidence has ever been presented.
God is a theoretical concept first or foremost. Or should I say an intelligence that created everything. Who he is, whether he is a sadist, whether he revealed himself or not to us or whether he is really a "he" is all besides the point.
Certainly certain theories of a God (religions) can be disproven.
In reality, God is just one potential theoretical answer to the question "how did everything come into existence?". For all we know existence occurred out of nothing. Either way it is beyond our examination and beyond our understanding.