Draka
Wonder Woman
I'm getting more and more on edge about something and I just want to vent it here. It's a sad state when the fact that it costs you to be sick causes you to get sicker.
I am dwelling on this because over the past few months I have found now 3 "moles" I hadn't noticed before. An odd shaped and two toned one on my right breast, an oval rough textured pink one on the front of my right shoulder, and more recently, a small odd feeling one on the back of my right shoulder. Now, I have also suffered migraines for over a decade but now I am having frequent headaches that aren't really migraines and starting to have frequent bloody noses as well. It's all freaking me out. Add on top of that that the world seems to be screaming the word "cancer" to me and I'm going nuts. Everytime I tune into some news, be it on the radio, tv, or click a link on the internet I always seem to come across some story related to cancer in some way. One might think I'm looking for it, but it was actually because of coming across the word so much that I actually started really thinking about these strange health concerns in that light. I otherwise just ignore those types of things.
Now, I don't have health insurance and can't really afford to get checked out without it. Even if I could, and it turned out that I am sick then I couldn't afford the treatments without insurance and I couldn't get any insurance I might get to cover it because then it would be a "pre-existing condition". I'm actually scared to go to a doctor because if I am sick then I can't afford it. I may be just paranoid with all of this, but I can't help it. I don't like going to doctors no matter how bad I feel. It's a double edged sword. Either I'm really sick and I can't afford to be, or I'm not really sick and I'm just acting like a hypochondriac by even going to a doctor and I feel like an idiot.
Anyone else feel like this? Have a health concern but won't get it checked due to finances?
I am dwelling on this because over the past few months I have found now 3 "moles" I hadn't noticed before. An odd shaped and two toned one on my right breast, an oval rough textured pink one on the front of my right shoulder, and more recently, a small odd feeling one on the back of my right shoulder. Now, I have also suffered migraines for over a decade but now I am having frequent headaches that aren't really migraines and starting to have frequent bloody noses as well. It's all freaking me out. Add on top of that that the world seems to be screaming the word "cancer" to me and I'm going nuts. Everytime I tune into some news, be it on the radio, tv, or click a link on the internet I always seem to come across some story related to cancer in some way. One might think I'm looking for it, but it was actually because of coming across the word so much that I actually started really thinking about these strange health concerns in that light. I otherwise just ignore those types of things.
Now, I don't have health insurance and can't really afford to get checked out without it. Even if I could, and it turned out that I am sick then I couldn't afford the treatments without insurance and I couldn't get any insurance I might get to cover it because then it would be a "pre-existing condition". I'm actually scared to go to a doctor because if I am sick then I can't afford it. I may be just paranoid with all of this, but I can't help it. I don't like going to doctors no matter how bad I feel. It's a double edged sword. Either I'm really sick and I can't afford to be, or I'm not really sick and I'm just acting like a hypochondriac by even going to a doctor and I feel like an idiot.
Anyone else feel like this? Have a health concern but won't get it checked due to finances?