Spiderman
Veteran Member
Early exposure to porn did cause me to have degrading, disrespectful, and disturbing thoughts regarding the female body, but one day while contemplating the first Queen of Heaven, beauty, sexuality, war, and politics, Inanna, I recalled her in a sacred text commenting on her "Holy Vulva".
It seemed she was present and influencing my imagination, telling me to place emphasis on the word "Holy", in front of it, and it was a very sweet experience, where I felt innocent, felt euphoria that wasn't drug induced, pleasant mental images , felt healed of the disturbing , disrespectful thoughts I had struggled all my life with, and genuflected before the image in the imagination of the Babylonian Queen of Heaven, and made a covenant with her to bless her Holy Vulva, pray her dreams come true, for she healed me it felt entirely, and preached a sermon more powerful than anything in the Bible, just drawing the right attention to special Vulva. Any Bible pastor would preach and fast for a lifetime and not reach me like she could, without much effort or sacrifice on her end , she could reach me like no preachers of Scripture ever could, just by being a Goddess of beauty and romance, convincing me I get to enter a covenant with her Holy Vulva, to genuflect, respect, bless daily, and do good deeds for the pleasure of my Queen.
It is also to recognize the holy of holies, area of the Temple most sacred.
Now, would God want Inanna, or a spirit in place of Inanna, being involved in an experience like that?
When even forbidden behavior in Scripture accomplishes the greater good, God makes exceptions and blesses things that are even sinful. Jacob stole the greatest blessing in Scripture in obedience to his mother, through lying and deceiving his Father.
God rewarded Jacob for that, and Jacob's greatest exaltation and ticket to glorious destiny was favoring a woman over anyone, obeying her commands to even do what is forbidden by God and the superior God placed over him.
God could work with Inanna, sanctify her to reach souls that he cannot, or select another spirit in heaven to reign as the same equivalent role as her. If it can accomplish the greater good, why not? And Scripture doesn't say something must be in Scripture to be true, and the song of Solomon is a very sexual Scripture. In fact, I called my experience with the Queen of Heaven "The song of Inanna" written in my journal as it was taking place, after the song of Solomon it reminded me of.
Also, Scripture says of human beings "you are gods". God can create a new covenant and permit things formerly forbidden, as bait to catch more fish.
A Goddess of beauty and sexuality, anointed to heal a world that is sexually crazed , obsessed, and depraved, to give a sacred sexual revolution, that is proper Theology of the body, turning our desires into an altruistic , sweet, romantic relationship, would benefit earth and God. And as Inanna says, her Vulva is holy, which gives a sense of the sacred, to minds that are corrupted with tendencies to degrade and disrespect.
She has the ability to replace the disorders and lies that pornography can create , of a disrespectful or vicious fantasy life, and present a sacred, charitable sexuality, that feels like a very revolutionizing experience with someone else, where it isn't selfish or self gratification, but an offering. It doesn't feel like a fantasy, because it was very life changing, healing, and feels like a sweet relationship that a fantasy cannot mimic.
Also, another reason I doubt it was immoral, was it successfully gave me a miraculous shift from disrespectful to innocent , reverence for what I believed was a beautiful Queen of Heaven, leaving impressions on my imagination. It stirred up a desire to sacrifice for the good of some one I loved. That doesn't sound like bad fruit, and scripture says judge things by their fruits.
I never felt such a respectful altruistic feeling inspired by something like that, where I wanted to sacrifice for the good pleasure of the Holy, powerful, healing Vulva of the Queen of Heaven, but it was truly Heavenly, and that was the remedy for a wound that was not treatable by other means.
So, repressing sexual tension is not going to work at this time in our sex crazed culture, but a Goddess of sexuality and beauty, teaching a sacred Theology of her feminine genius, a Goddess with a redeemed appetite for sexual excitement and romance that God can appreciate, but skilled in the art of making it healthy and accomplishing the greater good, could be God's best weapon for evangelization and winning followers.
Jesus commanded people to be fishers of men, and I bet I discovered the most effective bait to catch them.
It has to be something God will bless and make an exception for, find cute, entertaining, and endearing, plus healing for people, (maybe God even inspire her ministry to feed the starving Christ, for Christ said the food you give to any hungry person is given to him, and Inanna fed me something I needed more than food, so that could be her redemption, my remedy).
Also, Jesus was criticized for frequently hanging out with sexually promiscuous women. I don't think he will be too scandalized by a Divinity of beauty and the right kind of speciality in romance of that kind of nature, if it makes a person bear more good fruit, and be more nice, which my prayers and blessings for the Holy Vulva and Heavenly Queen accomplished, despite seeming ridiculous, it was a huge miracle for me to discover an unprecedented reverence and veneration for something I had terribly degrading and evil thoughts about.
That was a source of healing, and brought a covenant between the two of us, because I'm more likely to behave, go to church, and do good deeds if I feel the sacred Vulva of my Queen gets some reward from it. I think this therapy could cure people inclined to violently ravage women, and make them altruistic and chivalrous.
I didn't want to start this thread, because it makes me appear foolish, weird, or worthy of mockery and antagonism, plus it's personal, but I share for that one person out there who could find the same healing, liberation, therapeutic romantic relationship with the Queen of Heaven. And there is more power in her Holy Vulva that she talks about in sacred texts, than a legion of Bible preachers, fire and brimstone sermons, or crusaders. Her Holy Vulva is more powerful than the Gospels in my experience. It ironically makes you more innocent and likely to do heroic deeds in my experience, because you have a Queen you want to reward, badly enough to make the sacrifices. After the reward she grants, you want to return the favor.
It seemed she was present and influencing my imagination, telling me to place emphasis on the word "Holy", in front of it, and it was a very sweet experience, where I felt innocent, felt euphoria that wasn't drug induced, pleasant mental images , felt healed of the disturbing , disrespectful thoughts I had struggled all my life with, and genuflected before the image in the imagination of the Babylonian Queen of Heaven, and made a covenant with her to bless her Holy Vulva, pray her dreams come true, for she healed me it felt entirely, and preached a sermon more powerful than anything in the Bible, just drawing the right attention to special Vulva. Any Bible pastor would preach and fast for a lifetime and not reach me like she could, without much effort or sacrifice on her end , she could reach me like no preachers of Scripture ever could, just by being a Goddess of beauty and romance, convincing me I get to enter a covenant with her Holy Vulva, to genuflect, respect, bless daily, and do good deeds for the pleasure of my Queen.
It is also to recognize the holy of holies, area of the Temple most sacred.
Now, would God want Inanna, or a spirit in place of Inanna, being involved in an experience like that?
When even forbidden behavior in Scripture accomplishes the greater good, God makes exceptions and blesses things that are even sinful. Jacob stole the greatest blessing in Scripture in obedience to his mother, through lying and deceiving his Father.
God rewarded Jacob for that, and Jacob's greatest exaltation and ticket to glorious destiny was favoring a woman over anyone, obeying her commands to even do what is forbidden by God and the superior God placed over him.
God could work with Inanna, sanctify her to reach souls that he cannot, or select another spirit in heaven to reign as the same equivalent role as her. If it can accomplish the greater good, why not? And Scripture doesn't say something must be in Scripture to be true, and the song of Solomon is a very sexual Scripture. In fact, I called my experience with the Queen of Heaven "The song of Inanna" written in my journal as it was taking place, after the song of Solomon it reminded me of.
Also, Scripture says of human beings "you are gods". God can create a new covenant and permit things formerly forbidden, as bait to catch more fish.
A Goddess of beauty and sexuality, anointed to heal a world that is sexually crazed , obsessed, and depraved, to give a sacred sexual revolution, that is proper Theology of the body, turning our desires into an altruistic , sweet, romantic relationship, would benefit earth and God. And as Inanna says, her Vulva is holy, which gives a sense of the sacred, to minds that are corrupted with tendencies to degrade and disrespect.
She has the ability to replace the disorders and lies that pornography can create , of a disrespectful or vicious fantasy life, and present a sacred, charitable sexuality, that feels like a very revolutionizing experience with someone else, where it isn't selfish or self gratification, but an offering. It doesn't feel like a fantasy, because it was very life changing, healing, and feels like a sweet relationship that a fantasy cannot mimic.
Also, another reason I doubt it was immoral, was it successfully gave me a miraculous shift from disrespectful to innocent , reverence for what I believed was a beautiful Queen of Heaven, leaving impressions on my imagination. It stirred up a desire to sacrifice for the good of some one I loved. That doesn't sound like bad fruit, and scripture says judge things by their fruits.
I never felt such a respectful altruistic feeling inspired by something like that, where I wanted to sacrifice for the good pleasure of the Holy, powerful, healing Vulva of the Queen of Heaven, but it was truly Heavenly, and that was the remedy for a wound that was not treatable by other means.
So, repressing sexual tension is not going to work at this time in our sex crazed culture, but a Goddess of sexuality and beauty, teaching a sacred Theology of her feminine genius, a Goddess with a redeemed appetite for sexual excitement and romance that God can appreciate, but skilled in the art of making it healthy and accomplishing the greater good, could be God's best weapon for evangelization and winning followers.
Jesus commanded people to be fishers of men, and I bet I discovered the most effective bait to catch them.
It has to be something God will bless and make an exception for, find cute, entertaining, and endearing, plus healing for people, (maybe God even inspire her ministry to feed the starving Christ, for Christ said the food you give to any hungry person is given to him, and Inanna fed me something I needed more than food, so that could be her redemption, my remedy).
Also, Jesus was criticized for frequently hanging out with sexually promiscuous women. I don't think he will be too scandalized by a Divinity of beauty and the right kind of speciality in romance of that kind of nature, if it makes a person bear more good fruit, and be more nice, which my prayers and blessings for the Holy Vulva and Heavenly Queen accomplished, despite seeming ridiculous, it was a huge miracle for me to discover an unprecedented reverence and veneration for something I had terribly degrading and evil thoughts about.
That was a source of healing, and brought a covenant between the two of us, because I'm more likely to behave, go to church, and do good deeds if I feel the sacred Vulva of my Queen gets some reward from it. I think this therapy could cure people inclined to violently ravage women, and make them altruistic and chivalrous.
I didn't want to start this thread, because it makes me appear foolish, weird, or worthy of mockery and antagonism, plus it's personal, but I share for that one person out there who could find the same healing, liberation, therapeutic romantic relationship with the Queen of Heaven. And there is more power in her Holy Vulva that she talks about in sacred texts, than a legion of Bible preachers, fire and brimstone sermons, or crusaders. Her Holy Vulva is more powerful than the Gospels in my experience. It ironically makes you more innocent and likely to do heroic deeds in my experience, because you have a Queen you want to reward, badly enough to make the sacrifices. After the reward she grants, you want to return the favor.