Roland, I'm seriously trying to be upfront with you about this. I have not denied that some of our leaders had some very racist beliefs. All I'm trying to do is explain that no prophet who has ever lived (I'm including the Old Testament prophets) was perfect. Many of them had some significant shortcomings. Moses, as I said, killed a man. If you can say that you don't believe He was a prophet (because of what he did), then you can legitimately use the same argument against LDS prophets, none of whom are or were perfect.
I am old enough to remember the 1978 announcement that blacks were to be given the Priesthood. I was at work and it was shortly before lunch. Someone had the radio on and heard it on the news. Word spread quickly through the office where I worked. I can remember an absolutely euphoric feeling when I heard it. A few minutes later, I left the building. I still remember crossing the street to the mall across from my office. I felt so stupid, because I had this enormous grin on my face. I just couldn't wipe it off! I kept thinking, "Man, people are going to think I'm a nutcase, walking around smiling my head off." And then I looked around. People everywhere were smiling! It was a happy day for a lot of people, for a lot of white people.
The policy prohibiting blacks from holding the Priesthood was never a part of official church doctrine. It's not comfortable for me to say that, but that's how I see it. Nowhere in our "Doctrine and Covenants" (which is where the doctrine would most likely be found) are we told that blacks are not to hold the Priesthood. It was a practice that was put into place back in Brigham Young's day and which remained in force for many years. Do you know what it took for the practice to be rescinded? Men had to humble themselves enough to ask God for guidance. When they finally were able to do so, He responded to their prayers. I believe that this could have -- and should have -- taken place long before it did. You may feel that I'm just trying to appease you, and if that's how you feel, there is really nothing I can do about it. But in attempting to explain my feelings, I may very well be alienting myself from members of my own Church who may vehemently disagree with me. I am willing to do so because this is something I feel very strongly about.
Kathryn