VoidCat
Pronouns: he/him/they/them
Title: All the gifted kids are neurodivergent
When i was a kid
They called me gifted
Was reading college level books
In 3rd grade.
I excelled in my strengths
But my weaknesses were ignored
Dysgraphia, dyscalculia, ADHD and autism
Never got support for that
Teachers and my guardians
Just called me lazy.
Pressure on my shoulders
The teachers thought me mature for my age.
As soon as I could talk
I sounded like a professor
Well spoken and hyperverbal
My peers all thought me strange
So I'd avoid them chat with the adults.
As a result they never noticed
How I struggled going nonverbal at times
They'd sometimes trust me a bit too much
Heavy topics acted like I was an adult
Over estimated how much I could understand
How much I could handle.
Just cuz you can read something and quote it word by word doesn't mean you understand it
Came high school the first two years I could no longer keep up
So much pressure to perform
But sooo much going on
Ignoring my disabilities no accomadations.
I faltered
Failing my classes going catatonic at times
Still due to how much I read
When hyperverbal
I could hold my own in almost any conversation
I seemed soo intelligent
So why they all wondered
Did i seem to struggle so much?
The last two years of high school
I finally was accomadated
Passed most of my classes two of which were college classes
Barely any struggle at all
But I went from overly mature
To immature and incapable.
Underestimated.
Now as an adult in college
I can barely read anything
If it takes me longer then a few minutes
I'm exhausted all the time
I don't know if I can keep up at
The pace most folk can
I dont know how to handle the real world
I don't know what im doing
But I feel relieved
For there's not as much pressure
For im no longer gifted
And I'm needing accomadations
That are provided for me
Just trying to keep up.
I'm expected to live on my own
But don't know if i can
Im not used to struggling this much
When it comes to everyday tasks
But my mind feels content
I feel fine
When i was a kid
They called me gifted
Was reading college level books
In 3rd grade.
I excelled in my strengths
But my weaknesses were ignored
Dysgraphia, dyscalculia, ADHD and autism
Never got support for that
Teachers and my guardians
Just called me lazy.
Pressure on my shoulders
The teachers thought me mature for my age.
As soon as I could talk
I sounded like a professor
Well spoken and hyperverbal
My peers all thought me strange
So I'd avoid them chat with the adults.
As a result they never noticed
How I struggled going nonverbal at times
They'd sometimes trust me a bit too much
Heavy topics acted like I was an adult
Over estimated how much I could understand
How much I could handle.
Just cuz you can read something and quote it word by word doesn't mean you understand it
Came high school the first two years I could no longer keep up
So much pressure to perform
But sooo much going on
Ignoring my disabilities no accomadations.
I faltered
Failing my classes going catatonic at times
Still due to how much I read
When hyperverbal
I could hold my own in almost any conversation
I seemed soo intelligent
So why they all wondered
Did i seem to struggle so much?
The last two years of high school
I finally was accomadated
Passed most of my classes two of which were college classes
Barely any struggle at all
But I went from overly mature
To immature and incapable.
Underestimated.
Now as an adult in college
I can barely read anything
If it takes me longer then a few minutes
I'm exhausted all the time
I don't know if I can keep up at
The pace most folk can
I dont know how to handle the real world
I don't know what im doing
But I feel relieved
For there's not as much pressure
For im no longer gifted
And I'm needing accomadations
That are provided for me
Just trying to keep up.
I'm expected to live on my own
But don't know if i can
Im not used to struggling this much
When it comes to everyday tasks
But my mind feels content
I feel fine