I didn't have any before because I wasn't really part of a religion, and that upset me.
I have never been part of a religion myself, though when being in the Ashram in India I participated in all the rituals, but I always had my focus on My Master (who is really inside of me), hence not really feeling part of a religion probably. Even as a child I was a bit of an "Einzelganger". Just who I am
08 years ago I started visiting a Church (Baptist) in Holland, and seeing the members being part of the Church, seemed nice to me, but because their ideas were too much different, I was an outsider there too, even while inside (or probable due to being 'inside'). I even visited the Church like 4 years in a row, because I really enjoyed the singing and being there ... very uplifting ... I visited even twice on Sundays (or 3 times)).
Because I love introspection and being introvert, I love being at any ceremony. Sometimes I did have the thought "might be nice to be part", so I understand what you meant. Now I feel senang, going about it my way, and not be part of a religion (physically).